Its now or never
I have just made the biggest decision, to quit!
I have a 3 yr old and he has started to copy me smoking. When I saw this about a week ago, it has been embeded in my brain that I have to quit now before he grows up and wants to smoke..
I have started on Champix. I am on day one and already have this weird metallic taste in my mouth when I had my morning smoke.
This journey is going to be a hard one, every.single.person in my family smoke. I will be the first to let the habit go.
When I was pregnant, I quit immediately. No questions. Didnt even think of the cravings as I was determined to make sure my little person growing inside me had the best go at life.
Here i am today, smoking for 3 years and prior, 10 years.
Hope I can kick this habbit and save my health and my back pocket
Thank you for your kind words Robn. I will update this post with my journey. Thank you again!
Think of it like being different from the rest of your family. The brave one who stands out. Show your child that is the way to live their life. Not to fit in but to stand out. It really is easier than people make it out to be. I smoked for 19 years every single day 20 cigs a day. Sometimes more. i made the conscious decision that I didnt want to be that example to my kids. Their dad has been trying to quit for years and still has not. So I just did it. Just to show them that life is worth living and not behind something that will kill them. Teach your kids the habits that give them life. you can do this. you just have to REALLY want it.
Thank you all for your lovely words. Just to clarify, I only smoked outside and never in the car. I truly understand the impact it has on a child and I have ensured that he wasn't subjected to second hand smoke. Its just him seeing me light up, take a puff that he has started to "mimic" the action of it. That is what has made me think that it is now time to quit.
I am on day 4 of Champix. Yesterday I only had 2 smokes. I am up to taking two pills a day, have this horrid taste in my mouth and have zero cravings. I am quitting this time and will NOT take up the habit again.
I am going to do this and thank you all for all your kind words and inspiration. Means a lot.
Thanks Robn. Means a lot to have the support.
Was just thinking today, I can bring out all my lotions and perfumes out as well as I will be one nice smelling woman in about three weeks.
Have not had a smoke today but am feeling irritable. I will do this for me mostly but also for my son! Cant wait to start running without having a lung attack!
Thanks Robn.
Well i am now 22hours smoke free and feeling better. Sleeping at night has been hard waking a lot but i don't care. I am not going to smoke!
Biggest temptation was last night. After I put my little one to bed, made my coffee and walked outside, my hubby was there having a smoke. I just held onto my mug, walked back inside and started to do my vacuuming and cleaning the kitchen. The craving went!
I CAN DO THIS!!!
Well I am officially smoke free of 1 week and 1 day.
I have had to cut down the tablets from Champix though. The afternoon pill made me feel real sick and the dreams are something outta a horror movie. for the past 2 days, I have not taken the afternoon pill and have slept through.
I have also just succeeded with not smoking as well during a party that was held on Saturday. Everyone there smoked and I was the only one inside with all the kids for most of the time. I used that time to build Lego, play with the kids and watched a movie. I didnt feel like smoking.
What I found though, when they all came inside, the smell was making me feel sick again. Dont know if that was the Champix or that the nicotine is out of my system now and I can smell better.. I am not sure.. It just really smelt bad and it got me thinking about the kids and what they are smelling too when we were outside having a smoke and a coffee..
Ohh well, thats me for this week. I am a week and a day off smokes, I feel clearer than I have ever felt and this is for me so I can raise my son to know that when you put your mind to something you can achieve anything and that smoking is bad for your health...
Till next week..