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Starting Over ~ again.

Yesterday was my day 1 quit day ( with patches ) ~ I was fine all day, one craving on arriving home from doing errands, so I phoned my support person. When evening came I was in terrible pain ~ chronic back from old injury ) & took half a pain killer, as I could barely walk. I live with a smoker & this is difficult, but being in pain makes me very vulnerable. I smoked 6 cigarettes last night & today is Day One ~ again.

Hi amyrk, did the smoking ease your pain? or was the pain an excuse for your smoking? This sounds harsh but I type it in a sincere soothing manner (just cant express emotion in the typed word) however, if you truly want to overcome this nasty addiction, pain or not, you actually have to want too. There is heaps of support on this site and others are willing to help you succeed. Post regularly and let us know how you're doing.
Pain is not a choice for you - but smoking is. My partner also still smokes - but this is his journey. This also makes me vulnerable to taking it back up again - but I CHOOSE not to smoke even though he is right in front of me (I have asked him not to shield me from it).
Take care and good luck

Hi ~ yes there is a definite link between physical/psychological pain & craving the distraction ( o, so temporary ) of smoking. I seem to be fine during the day, but evenings & nights are problematic ~ this is often the time when back pain is worse. I want to stop, I don't think I've ever wanted to stop this much before.

I have had many days/weeks without smoking over the past years, saving over $5000. An ongoing crisis in my household has triggered me back to smoking on many occasions. Today, I have had enough and want to find some peace. I'm looking for somewhere else to live - alone. I'm facing several legal & financial difficulties, post bushfires, floods & now covid.