Sneaky ugly things....
Hi all,
Day 30 today!!! woo hoo I made it to the first 30 days!!! This is the longest I have been smoke free in 25 years :o) very pleased with myself.
Over the last few days I have had some really strong cravings and I admit that I have even tried to "negotiate" with myself.... I have caught myself in deep thought trying to rationalise "JUST ONE". However, my "WANT" is my inner voice and is also a very good negotiator and I did not cave in... Its all about my choice then - I CHOOSE not to have that smoke or drag...
But it's moments like this that I reflect on my very young journey to being a non-smoker and it frightens me that all could be lost so easily... I often find myself thinking "now what? what should I do now instead of having a smoke?" I've mentioned before that I play a game on my phone for 10 or so minutes but this now bores me. I'm practising a lot of silent self talk and just sitting still breathing. Here, I remind myself of my achievements so far and the things I actually like about being a non-smoker such as the smell of the fresh country air (we live in rural Victoria) and then I breath deep and actually enjoy it. Then my craving is gone. My "what now?" is gone. I refocus on whatever it was I was doing and continue.
Yep - the last few days have been tough but I remain strong, have faith in me, and read your posts and check in with you guys...
Thanks for being there for me....
Wow reading your post could easily have been me!! Day 30 today and I also have had strong cravings ....that nicotine is bad stuff huh? Anyway hung in there and so will you cause at the end of the day yes , we would like to smoke BUT we do not want all the bad things that go with it . One would never be enough :-) and the last thing I want is the merry-go-round of wishing I could stop smoking . Yes early days but on track
Thanks Lizzie.... determination and hard work will keep us off that merry-go-round... definitely on track :o)
Hey Crasher, yes all about determination.... smokes were giving me some copd and i still have urges. But then i say "why think of having just one when they can inflict more damage to me" NO.. 70 DAYS now and breathing much better and walking up hill better.. they are NOT worth it.
Well done Johnnie. You're a true inspiration and I look forward to reading your journey's posts. My daughter is a paramedic and constantly went on and on about the COPD patients she had to visit and her strong wish for me to quit smoking. This was not my motivator to give it up but I didn't like hearing her stories all the same. You're doing very well Johnnie - 70 days strong...
Thanks Eshwar :) you're doing very well too!!!!
There are a few of us around the month/few months mark on here. Its really reassuring to know that we are not alone...
Go Crasher 30 days is a hard slog. Well done.All comments indicate it gets easier rather than harder after this.
Oh Crasher, I'm hearing you loud and clear! You're doing a brilliant job, keep up the fight.