hanging on....somehow!!!!
close to 100 hours now since i last lighted..living on chewing gums and sheer will!!!!
might sound funny but i had i dream as well last night that i smoked..was relieved to find out upon waking up that it was just a dream..
have been visiting this site altleast twice to thrice a day to gain strength..
its actually very difficult to resist the temptation on a working day with all the pressure and tight schedule :`(
still..hanging tough!!
that's the way 100 hrs count the hrs I am sure it was minutes at the start for me, now after 22 days not quite by the minute but the thought still comes to smoke.
I just tell it I don't smoke.
probably not the sanest person on the planet atm but still a whole pile saner than I was when smoking I was killing myself, now I just p$ss a few people off , nothing major though, and its getting better slowly so , a win for me and I didn't hurt anyone , just annoyed them a bit , maybe I should ring quitline or lifeline let off some steam :)
more to no smoking than just not smoking I guess but it takes time and I am no saint just a human who is kicking a 30+ year drug habit, so emotional slips will happen.
so yeah its not easy but no use beating myself up over not being perfect.
IC
Today is my first day not smoking. Last cigarette was 5.30pm yesterday. Wanting to quit to be healthy and have a family. Just need to stay strong