At last I have started

I have smoked a packet a day for thirty five years and loved it. I knew I had to give up for the sake of my health but that was not a particularly compelling reason. I picked a date and decided, on my doctor's advice, to try Zyban to help me. I really didn't believe that it was possible for me to even start, however, I am now on my eighth day of non-smoking. I am meditating in the morning, taking the medication and trying to breathe through the not inconsiderable cravings I have experienced. The side effects of Zyban are not as bad as I anticipated - dry mouth, interrupted sleep and many dreams (although no bad ones to date). I really do think the Zyban is helping. In my previous attempts, I became very depressed and now, I am emotional and irritable but not depressed. I keep telling myself that finally I am free and out of prison. I very much hope I can stay out of prison.