3 days and counting

So 3 smoke free days have passed, have they been easy? no definately not. Is it an achievable goal to be a non smoker? yes it definately is.

I decided to quit as a birthday present to myself, I turned 38 two days ago, my smoking started at a very early age, I was just 9.  If I let this go another year, I would have been a smoker for 30 years and 30 years too many.

As a child I was mainly looked after by my sister and her friends, she is 6 years my elder, so back in the 80's when they were in their teens and experimenting, all thought it was fun to teach and let me experience with them.  Ah, to be able to turn back the clock, but alas I cannot do that, but whilst I cannot change the past, I can certainly change the future.

I look at my 10 year old son and realise the stupidity of me smoking at that early age and more so the stupidity of letting it go on for so long, but no longer, I have attempted to quit about 4 or 5 times in my life, twice was reasonably serious, this time I am committed.

Both my children are so happy and proud of me, regardless of how difficult this journey may be I am not sure I could swallow my pride and admit to them I failed and started smoking again, sometimes ego can be a good thing.

Last night my partner took me out for dinner and I enjoyed some wine with the meal and a few spirits after, while most people report that they find it difficult to drink and not smoke, for me it is the opposite.  I was able to have a few drinks (and I do not drink much nowdays, so that was a lot for me) and actually found not smoking less of a struggle than I have throughout the previous days and nights.

Well there is little else I can say, other than I do have my nicotine spray mist and some chewing gum to keep me busy, but as the days progress the novetly of these items is wearing off and I am using the nicotine replacements less, a good sign I believe that my brain is adjusting.

Good luck to all of you out there that have embarked on this journey, I would normally say stay strong and never give up, but I think I mean to say 'be a quitter' hehehe

Love to all

MissyMe