The stress!
I've become a 'secret' smoker...as far as anyone else knows I geve up years ago, but I crept back to it, now I hide it from everyone, at least I think I do, I keep giving up, then a day later something happens at work, or at home, and there I am sneaking back to the servo to spend money I can't afford on smelly, stinky ciggies that give me a temporary escapism from the stress but mean I can't train as hard as I'd like to, I'm washing my hair every day so no one can smell it, I'm racing home every afternoon to have a smoke before anyone else gets back before me. It's pathetic, I'm embarrassed about it, I loathe myself for my addiction and I want to stop it, badly, I can't afford it financially or health wise, so why can't I do it?!?!
Hi jps, I have never heard of that, people must know. I think you need to quit the smoking, especially as it is a secret too, it adds guilt to it. I think stress is something we all suffer from, I wish you every success whatever you choose to do. But I will tell you that smoking actually adds to stress.I find that since I quit smoking I feel so much better in myself, the freedom that comes with not smoking does help your stress in the long run.
Thanks Converse, you are right on all counts, the guilt too. I actually now can't wait not to smoke, I remember how liberated I felt when I gave up 20 odd years ago, I didn't smoke for years, and I rue the day I started again. So now its a case of finding new routines to stop the trigger and finding a different way to negate the stress.
converse is right i don't think it is a secret, only to yourself you can give up if you really want to, go and see your doctor and get some help it might be easy to hide smoking from everyone but it will be even harder to hide a smoking related illness, stop now before it is too late.
I am sure people are able to smell it on you! You can't cover the smell of cigarettes up, even with perfume! Good luck with quitting! I was more stressed when I did smoke than now!