FEAR
I think the main reason for my making another atempt at quitting smoking has a lot to do with a fear of becoming very sick. I'm now in my forties and it's a time of life when things can start to really go wrong. I'm a volunteer fireman and I have noticed that I'm struggling to keep up with my mates in training and out on the job. It's a lot more labour intensive than it used to be and I'm also fearful that I'll let my buddies down when I should be at my best.
It's all so worrying. I feel terrible after every cigarette and it makes me wonder what on earth my limitations in life are if I can't kick this habit. If I'm not strong willed enough to throw cigaretts away, then what good am I when a "crunch time" really comes? These are the questions and worries that are rolling around in my head because of this stupid addiction.
One day I went to the Dr to get results of a MRI for a unrelated problem and they found a non malignant tumor that needs to be removed as it is pressing on my optic nerve and intruding into the brain. He said 12 mths of ops to remove but WONT OPERATE if I smoke. So gave up that night other wize I was signing my own death warrant. With the help of my son I stopped that night am now on day 44. Yes just do it for yourself as most Drs are starting not to treat smokers. Go for it ,I am feeling so much better after 30yrs. Smoking is just a master we the slave to it. I am loving my new freedom. :)
Thanks for that!! Now that I hear doctors are starting to refuse treatment to smokers, it's another reason to add to the list. Maybe thats what works on me? Scare tactics! :) Thanks for your comment. I am indded taking that on board for real.
Sami - Not the dreaded gym! Noo!! I do power walking and try to stay on top of things with diet etc.. But it's finding ways to keep my hands busy when I get bored. I'm on annual leave, so I can sit down and play the guitar or type away on the computer, but I dont know how I'll go when I get to thes stresses of work on Tuesday. That will be the REAL test for me. But just take it one hour at a time. Thanks for the email.