The little darling who keeps me motivated
Well, here I am...it's my 3rd attempt at quitting and I'm on day 3 of my 'pre quit' plan. I've set a date of Feb 29 (lucky leap year!) to stop completely but at this stage I'm on Nicabate pre-quit patches, to ease myself towards my quit date. The week leading up to this phase was quite weird. I found myself experiencing moments of depression, fear, anxiety and feelings of loss at the thought of losing 'my old friend'. I realize its a ridiculous notion to form such a strong 'friend' attachment to a habit that will kill me but that's the way I feel.
Cigarettes have been a crutch for me for almost 40 years - through an abusive childhood, the loss of family members, my brother's suicide, etc etc. Now I'm at the stage where I need to let my destructive habit go... and to be honest I feel sad about it. However, I have a beautiful 18 month old granddaughter who idolizes me and I want to be around to witness her grow up. I recently moved into a gorgeous house with my my daughter, her partner and my divine little Mia - so now I get to see her every day... and inspire me every day to stick with my decision. It's early days but wish me luck!!!
You'll get there Red700 take a day at a time and then days turn into weeks....I know what you mean, when I gave up 42days ago I thought the same as you, but now I find I don't even miss them. All the best
hi red700 just be carefull with your depression it can sneek up on you it did for me although i did have a heart attack last november but i think it was the quiting that triggered my depression. im ok now but it took 2 months of my life but i am 111 days smoke free.