First Confession
Well, I dont think a day goes by I dont think of giving up and tonight I have found this site. I believe a friend in the laptop is what I need to take get me past the initial discomfort. What a love/hate relationship I have with smoking...
Im a bit of a closet smoker and have been for 12 years (OMG I had never really said that to myself) and funny enough have somehow convinced myself that im not a heavy smoker when In actuality prob smoke 10-15 per day. Being a closet smoker if I go away for work functions I can actually go a couple of days without them and didnt smoke whilst preganant but the past few years...hopeless! I leave work during the day to smoke and feel this is so disruptive to my profession. The wost thing is my children 4 and 6 see it (father smokes also) and I feel terrible when I have to always tell them to move because we are smoking - its not fair on them.
I love smoking as much as I hate it and are looking to you people to be my distraction and inspiration. I cant believe these things really have got the better of me - Im doing this!
I wont be far away ... thanks guys
Godd on you I breath freely for taking the first step - it won't be easy but it will be worthwhile. Sending you (HUGS) and all the good feelings you can take.
Thanks heaps joeywal and dr feelgood, you are right! I think my triggers are at home because when I go places I dont even take them with me. Dr feelgood your words will be the affirmation I will carry in my early days :)