Trial and error

I've tried quitting a number of times and each time i came up short. One time i quit because i couldn't afford to buy smokes but craved them just the same.

The patches i've used have ranged from falling off with a light sweat and they didn't work at all to severe rashes from the glue and a VERY mild effect of them working. The gum almost blistered my mouth and my mouth felt like it was on fire. First time i had it i regurgetated thought it was because it was "new" for my body and tried again - didn't work.

Now i'm going to try Champix DISPITE me having depression. Spoken to my dr who can prescribe anti depressants WHILE ON Champix.

I want to quit because i'm sick of smoking, snoring, headaches and no money. I'm doing this for me and nobody else. i'm not quitting for anyone because if you do that, why aren't you doing it for you? why aren't you doing something for yourself? I'm not doing this for my husband and kids, I am doing this so I can buy new clothes for ME and ONLY ME. It's high time i spoilt myself instead of everyone else, heck, they're not going to do it for me!

So, if this time i fall from grace and i have to start again, i wont see it as a fail, i'll see it as "try something else".