It is day 3 for me now. I have been so happy and proud of myself up until now. It has just occured to me what is a HUGE stressor. And that is when I have a falling out within my family. I know this isn't cunselling site and I don't wish to be it's just that I've realised the worst trigger for wanting a cigarette. And it really is when times get tough. It's even harder because I actually have no one here to support me because the two people I had a a falling out with are the ones who also walked out. (I live with them). It is quite upsetting because I have tried my hardest at maintaining my mood and keeping offthe cigarettes, yet I feel like the only support I'm receiving is off this site. I suppose that's why I'm here but it would be much more helpful getting it from home as well.
I thought I would post this to be honest and to show people out there that no it's not always easy. I think it is helpful if you know your triggers and have a back up plan. Before this I was actually having a 'not so bad run'...... I was very strong, confident, excited and happy not to smoke.
I am scared I will become that upset and feel alone that I will dare let myself have a cigarette. I am trying to push through it. That's why I'm also typing this!
I'm sorry that I feel like this because of how someone else makes me feel rather then how I feel. I should really call Quitline (I said I would if I needed it).... for some reason I feel like holding back. I have never told a counsellor how I'm feeling. So this would be new for me and it's scary.
I still believe in myself and I hope I really haven't discouraged a few of you. I really am trying with all I can, I just can't beat feeling upset at the moment seeing the circumstances.
Thanks again and again to each of you who have supported me! You guys are unbelievably great! I had read all your messages and have enjoyed/appreciated every single one. My thoughts are with you guys and I'm proud to be seeing/hearing you all through!
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