Okay day 34 and over $510 saved. I am a 40 year old male who has been a smoker for about 26 years. I am a shift worker and usually smoke about one pack of Winnie blues a day however on night shift in a 10 hour period used to smoke a whole pack easily if work was light on. I haven't written anything yet as I have have doubted that I would get this far. I am scared that I will just have one puff which will lead to one cigarette which will lead to one pack a day. And bam before you know it I'm back to square one. Sadly this is my first serious attempt at quitting I have chosen to attempt cold turkey as I work in the nightclub industry enough people smoke round me so I figured the second hand nicotine is still getting in my system. This journey has been so hard but the fear of failing is keeping me strong. My appetite has remained the same and I am still drinking alcohol even been intoxicated a few times since my quit date and stayed strong. The benefits after a month are starting to become obvious my exercise routine is easier, my taste buds seem sharper and unfortunately given the industry I work in my sense of smell is amazing sometimes I wish it wasn't so sharp. My skin seems clearer as well I have deliberately kept to my old routine when I'm on the phone I stand outside and talk minus the smoke I have a coffee as soon as I wake up and again go outside to have it. I am determined to live my life as I used to minus the cigs. I accept I am scared of failure and won't give up being scared and doubting myself as this is keeping me strong. Disgustingly the only cravings I experienced we're after a heavy training session where I used to have a smoke before hitting the showers. Okay so this is my weird little experience. I still think of myself as a smoker attempting to quit. I am way to afraid to say I have quit them for good yet as I think having a healthy respectful fear of addiction is not a bad thing. I intend to write another rambling session at day 60 or there abouts. I guess like a lot of people I have been sitting on the sidelines reading everyone's else's posts. Cheers.
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