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Miss lizzy
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Posted in Staying quit 22 Oct 2016
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My cravings are so intense today??? I nearly caved in and went and bought some? Today is day 154 smoke free,which is 22 weeks and I have come so far that I don't want to give up now😖 but I thought the cravings would get less as time passed,and today has shaken that thought? Oh god, when does this mental torture end? Smoking is such an awful,self destructive addiction,but then no addiction is not self destructive. I am a recovered alcoholic also with 20 years sobriety and that was really tough in the beginning too,mind you I had smokes to deal with the withdrawal from that and to deal with my emotions😭 which is what is so hard. I had some really upsetting family news today and I'm on the phone with my sister ,crying and I can hear her dragging on a cigarette? And my mind just says,"this is to hard, I can't do this anymore,I want a bloody cigarette!!! But then reason kicked in and said " no you don't, is having a cigarette gonna fix any of this Liz? Is it going to take the pain away? Is it gonna help your sister? Is it going to help you and get you the life you want? NO, NO,NO was the answer, so I bought more patches and I came home and started to post all this to you guys😊 smoking cigarettes has no positive benefit to my life at all and it is not going to change one positive thing in my life, it is a horrible, destructive addiction and just for today, I am not going to do it!🙁

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  • Jano, Sydney October 22, 2016 | 17:41
    Hi Miss Lizzy, I am so sorry that you are going through such a rough time at the moment please stay strong. I am so proud of you for not giving in, and I agree with everything you have said. Smoking does not solve any of our problems and we just need to find the strength & courage to get through the rough patches. I am at day 99 and I still get some strong urges but I cannot let the craving win no matter what. please stay positive and strong and don't ever go back NOT even for one puff - we are all here for you and for each other
  • Gebstar, Sydney October 22, 2016 | 20:30
    It's a great turning point to realize and accept that despite what you're feeling, cigarettes will not be any help.

    I've found that in order to keep myself on the path to staying quit is actually taking up the opportunities afforded to me by being a non smoker. I exercise, I spend more time with my family, I make plans with the money I've saved. The more I invest in being a non smoker, the more I have to lose by starting again.

    Also look for opportunities to engage in habits/activities that add to your experience rather than take away.
  • Steve01 October 23, 2016 | 19:45
    Damn well done Liz. You won a major battle with logical self reasoning. It's amazing how an overwhelming craving can still pop out to haunt us even after a long period without smokes. I ignored my power of reasoning at 121 days in my last quit and slid all the way to the bottom of the mountain. It's really depressing having to start over and you avoided that.
  • Fullofhope, South Eastern Sydney October 23, 2016 | 22:25
    I so understand. It's just so very hard at times and I am still surprised that the cravings mobilize and wage war against me for a few days. It's not the same but make a cup of tea or decide to cook something and make a shopping list, go to the supermarket and bring the ingredients back and then start to chop. Either you eat it or give your dish to someone who needs it. Whatever, you have distracted yourself.
    And you'll feel so great about resisting such a strong urge that it will be easier next time. Good luck - it's so hard but somewhere, deep down, you'll cheer your own self on.
  • steve.r, Mid North Coast October 28, 2016 | 10:32
    omg miss lizzy,just got champix today,every time I think of having a smoke just gotta think of my health just had a defib put in,,hoping that will scare me out of this toxic addiction,please don't break,,stay strong an yr health just get stronger,i have had a lot of other addictions,beat them so heres hoping,good luck an well done

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