My cravings are so intense today??? I nearly caved in and went and bought some? Today is day 154 smoke free,which is 22 weeks and I have come so far that I don't want to give up now😖 but I thought the cravings would get less as time passed,and today has shaken that thought? Oh god, when does this mental torture end? Smoking is such an awful,self destructive addiction,but then no addiction is not self destructive. I am a recovered alcoholic also with 20 years sobriety and that was really tough in the beginning too,mind you I had smokes to deal with the withdrawal from that and to deal with my emotions😭 which is what is so hard. I had some really upsetting family news today and I'm on the phone with my sister ,crying and I can hear her dragging on a cigarette? And my mind just says,"this is to hard, I can't do this anymore,I want a bloody cigarette!!! But then reason kicked in and said " no you don't, is having a cigarette gonna fix any of this Liz? Is it going to take the pain away? Is it gonna help your sister? Is it going to help you and get you the life you want? NO, NO,NO was the answer, so I bought more patches and I came home and started to post all this to you guys😊 smoking cigarettes has no positive benefit to my life at all and it is not going to change one positive thing in my life, it is a horrible, destructive addiction and just for today, I am not going to do it!🙁
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