It seems that most times when I get an urge to give-in and light-up, someone who loves me and whom I love give me a reason not to. Hearing my son say that he is proud of me is probably the best support mechanism I could think of. I haven't had many opportunities in my life to do something my son could be proud of me for. Quite the opposite, he has given me many, many opportunities to be proud of him. He is an individual who can set his mind to doing something and you can rely 99.9% that it will get done or that he will accomplish it. Isn't it strange that I view my son as my hero . . . as the person I would most like to be like? Well, that is the truth and hearing him say that he was proud of me for being able to quit a 53 year addiction is reason enough to carry-on with my non-smoking trek. My wife is another leg of my support structure. Hearing her say that I am doing so well in my recovery from the nicotine addiction gives me strength to keep-on fighting. She tells me that she knows it isn't easy because she is an ex-smoker herself. When someone you know who loves you, indicates their pride in you and/or happiness with you, it means so much. You simply do not want to disappoint them. So now, with their help, I have remained quit from nicotine for 4 years, 2 months, and 29 days. In another 37 days I will have reached my 70th birthday. As I lay in ICU/CCU after the heart attack that my 53 year addiction brought about, I had some very serious doubt that I would live to see this birthday. Thanks to the advice, care, and love shown by my family, it looks like I might just get to set my beard on fire with 70 candles this year.
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