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WhiteWillow
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It came unexpectedly

Posted in Quit experiences 31 Aug 2016
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Hi everyone, so I'm 104 days smoke free. Yay for me and I have to confess I haven't found it particularly hard, I know that I'm pone of the lucky ones. There have been days, during the last 104, that I felt as though I'd lost something but nothing like the cravings I've read about here. I counted myself very lucky. Then on Saturday evening, home alone, I had this almost overwhelming urge to go and smoke a cigarette. I'm not talking a bit of a "well, I probably could have a smoke" and then a few seconds later the thought is gone. I'm talking full on, GET ME A CIGARETTE kind of craving. It lasted for about 30 minutes. There were none in the house and I'd had two glasses of wine so was unfit to drive, as we live in a village there's no way to get to a shop without transport, thank goodness. It was such a shock that it totally flummoxed me and left me feeling as though I'd been punched in the stomach. How can this suddenly have happened? The following day, I was fine. I didn't even think about having a cigarette. The day after I remembered I'd had a terrible craving but even with others smoking around me I didn't want one.

The feelings came unexpectedly and I was as close as I have been to folding. Perhaps it's that I had had it easy that the big craving hit harder as I was unprepared for these feelings.

I'm telling you because I want you to know that part of not smoking was the thought of coming on here and having to admit that I'd smoked. There would have been no catalyst, no big reason. But I didn't cave in, I kept strong and I am still a non-smoker.

Apologies for wittering on and thanks for reading to the end.

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  • Johnnie, South Eastern Sydney September 01, 2016 | 7:30
    Very Happy for you White Willow. That was a real acid test that you went through and you came up trumps. Next time will be easier because you know you can handle the situation. Have had a couple of beauties myself too but they passed. Talk next time. Chrers.
  • Crasher September 01, 2016 | 9:46
    Congrats White Willow and thank you for sharing your story :o) You have amazing strength which I admire - well done
  • auld reekie, South Western Sydney September 01, 2016 | 13:14
    yes they come at weird and wonderful times, you done well to control it, don't know about the wine though, that would have found a Cuban cigar
  • Cranky76 September 01, 2016 | 20:56
    Good on you, one for resisting and another for sharing. It's weird how cravings just jump out of nowhere and bite us on the butt, is it to remind us not to be lax? Is it just simply evil? Who knows but well done to you..
  • Miss lizzy September 01, 2016 | 22:49
    Yeah, your still a non smoker and you beat that nicotine craving.old habits die hard, but with practice, new ones evolve 😊
  • IC September 02, 2016 | 3:02
    seems to be how it works for me I don't get I want a smoke much but when I do its strong , at the start it was short but often maybe that's how it works.

    one thing I can not forget is I am an addict and always will be.

    well done for sharing WW and even better for not smoking after all they are only thoughts until acted on, then they are actions. thoughts wont kill me actions will.

    IC
  • Chezzel September 02, 2016 | 21:47
    Well done for resisting and thank you so much for sharing . So very proud of you keep up the amazing inspirational work

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