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WhiteWillow
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60 days smoke-free

Posted in Hints and tips 19 Jul 2016
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Hello all you lovely smoke free people. It's been 2 full months now for me and I finally did the the big 5k run at the weekend for Cancer Research UK. Guess what! I managed it, I ran all the way round the course and I even had enough breath left at the 4k mark to have a chat with a lady who quit smoking 3 years ago. It was thrilling to see thousands of women dressed in pink and all running for the same charity. This is the first time I have run for the charity and not gone for a guilty smoke afterwards. What on earth was I thinking then? I'm done smoking! This was the clincher, this was what I have been working towards for the last 60 days. I'm clean and I'm ready to take up fitness a little more seriously now. I've even registered for Park-Run, IC, don't freak out! I'm so proud of myself. I look forward to getting out of bed and putting my running gear on and going out in the morning sun, running through the fields and being alive. I have ALL you guys on here to thank for this. You are all amazing and if I can quit and stay quit, so can each and every one of you. You're a brilliant bunch of people. Thank you.

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  • Chezzel July 19, 2016 | 17:59
    How frustrating no Internet over the weekend due to poor weather, then today I left a big long post congratulating you Willow and telling you how amazing, awesome and inspirational you are and also a post for me telling everyone how bad I am feeling and not coping etc and later after posting going back on to read my inspirational replies and nothing - post hadn't published. Boy did I stress after a few tears and smelling the smoke from family members having coffee, and my wonderful husband telling me not to stress - just have a smoke you are doing so well one won't hurt so I rang a really good friend the only one who doesn't smoke - she gave up last year and she tells me that if I am still wanting one and stressing and getting tearful perhaps My body is not ready to give. Well guess what believe it or not after all that I did not give in and have a smoke but I did go and buy a non nicotine vapour kit, it is currently on charge and no I haven't actually used it but I think I feel a bit better just knowing that it is there - gosh that sounds so daft. I apologise for long and possibly senseless rant - bet this post gets published lol hopefully back to almost normal (whatever normal is these days)by tomorrow take care all
  • Chezzel July 19, 2016 | 18:00
    Oh yeah knew that one would publish
  • WhiteWillow July 19, 2016 | 20:30
    Hey Chezzel, well done for not giving in. I think perhaps you should mention to your lovely husband that actually one would hurt as you will have to go back to day 1 again. The tears are normal, don't worry, you're not going crazy. All these emotions are the nico-demons trying to persuade you to take them back as it's like a bad break up. They are needy, aggressive, rude and most of all harmful to your well being (physical and mental). Treat them like you would an abusive ex-boyfriend - look them in the eye and tell them you don't want them in your life anymore. You are stronger than you realise and I have total faith in you. I don't think you will even need the vapour kit. I know you can do this, I know you will feel better every day you are off the smokes and I also know that you will feel proud of yourself for doing so. YOU are amazing, flower, stick with it and your life will change for the better. Hugs.
  • Chezzel July 19, 2016 | 22:39
    Oh WW thank you so much for just being there, after reading your posts I always feel a bit better, and more positive I know my family/husband mean well guess they just feel useless and frustrated as well, not knowing how to help me. I just can't wait for the day when i don't feel like one, think my next purchase in my non smoking quest is going to be a Fitbit, but can't see myself running tho maybe a few brisk walks. Big hugs to you as well for being such an amazing person. You have no idea how much you help me, and everyone else trying to quit, we would be lost without you and of course IC as well. Thanks guys sleep,well will chat again tomorrow.
  • WhiteWillow July 20, 2016 | 0:31
    Bless you, Chezzel, that's so sweet.
    The Fitbit is a great idea, that's exactly what I did and it's given me a whole new view on my activity during the day. I am fitter than I ever was, even before I was smoking. I hate gyms so avoid them like the plague and actually enjoy getting out, breathing clean air and reaching my step goals each day. Let me know how you get on, flower.
    I got mine from Amazon, check out the different colours as the price varies on them - no idea why but it is what it is. Let me know how you get on.
    Sweet dreams. WW
  • IC July 20, 2016 | 13:49
    really does it get any more serious than running 5K's LOL

    what's that saying you can run but you cant hide sneaky smoke after running for a cancer charity that right there sums up this addiction. and the crap we tell ourselves.

    well done WW your doing great an inspiration to many!!

    IC
  • Chezzel July 20, 2016 | 18:52
    WW and IC you are both really incredible awesome people thank you so much
  • manchild July 22, 2016 | 12:00
    Proud of you!
  • WhiteWillow July 22, 2016 | 20:26
    Thanks, everyone, that's really kind of you and means a lot.
  • Queenbee59 April 03, 2019 | 22:52
    Hello ! I just joined today. 60 days smoke free. This has been the hardest thing I have ever done. I have not given up and will continue to do so. I am in need of support most days and am very grateful for anyone that offers it. Had a really time yesterday with anxiety yesterday and I did have to do to Dr. Is anyone else feeling this way ????

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