I borrowed this from an article - "Introducing any amount of nicotine back into the system immediately ramps up the addiction. Relapsing immediately places the quitter back at square one in the withdrawal process."
So today its day 69 smoke free and nicotine free.
However bad it feels I really think I should not want to go back to square one in the withdrawal process. I'm going to lose all that time, all that work.
I'm writing this down because that is how I have justified remaining nicotine free today! This is to anyone who has got a decent amount of days behind them or even just a day or two, don't waste all the effort you just made to get where you are by picking up a cigarette or taking nicotine.