If I could just harbour that evasive posative thinking. I find my imagination drowning in mediocre messages. My posative self talk isn't strong. However, it has improved over the months since a hospital stay. I am controlling the amount I smoke. With the amount of effort it takes to reduce, I'm sure I can quit. My doctor wants me to wake up with a brisk walk to the shop to buy a newspaper. This is instead of cups of coffee and smoking. I think I should throw in a shower as well. He wants me to have the same routine for about an hour each morning. That way my brain will recognise that I am awake.