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KitKat5284
Illawarra Shoalhaven
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23/02/2014
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such a fraud

Posted in Quit experiences 08 Mar 2014
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hello all,

i feel like such a fraud. i was doing so well, i had quit, i stayed quit, i slipped up once, i went back to quitting ... and now, oh i dont know. 

i was getting such lovely support from people on here, i dont know what happened. usually i resorted to smoking to deal with stress. there has not been any lately (very surprising for me under my circumstances). my other down fall in the past has been boredom, and lately i have been managing to keep myself busy.

i wish everyone well with their quitting journey. i will return soon, when i am worthy to tell everyone of my "quitting" journey.

:-/

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  • Bill44, Central Coast March 09, 2014 | 13:00
    KitKat it would seem that, at the moment, you'd rather smoke than give up. You won't succeed until you turn that around because it is you that has to give up, anything you take or stick on will only help you a bit, you have to be determined to go through the hard part yourself.
  • mambogirl, Illawarra Shoalhaven March 09, 2014 | 15:17
    Hey Kit Kat .. stay with me hun.. Its 13 and a half days for us both.. Don't use excuses , This journey from now on will get easier.. Yes i still could go out the back now and light up. BUT IM NOT !!! .. I am a maniac on weekends keeping busy !!! New garden bed being made as we speak :) Keep with me , Stay strong ! x
  • Adzzz March 10, 2014 | 13:25
    Hi KitKat, it is a constant struggle.. Even after 246 days smoke free I am still craving like crazy. At this point it's supposed to be all in my head, it certainly doesn't feel that way to me.

    The quit experience is different for different people. Some people are able to without a problem, but for other's it's not so easy. I honestly don't know how much longer I will last. I am trying to fight it but it's not as easy as people think!

    I agree with Bill44 though, YOU have to WANT to give up. Don't do it because other people pressured you into it, it's got to be on your terms when your ready, because otherwise it just won't work. Good luck!
  • jolmccabe March 10, 2014 | 16:41
    Don't beat yourself up KitKat, it's good to hear that you haven't given up on giving up :)
  • sheehas March 10, 2014 | 17:06
    KitKat, just keep going - perseverence is the key. Stop in your own time and when you feel right. Don't feel pressured because if you can stop on your own terms and in your own time, it will be stress-free. That is what I did and I haven't had one for 2 years, because I gave my mind and my body time to get used to the idea that we were going to stop. I cut down and finally got to zero per day, but I did it how I had to do it.
  • KitKat5284, Illawarra Shoalhaven March 10, 2014 | 17:19
    thanks for your comments.
    contrary to certain belief, i do want to give up smoking.
    i understand that everyone has their own problems and issues they are dealing with, so to am i.
    there are other things i my world that need so much energy and attention and coping with, that my willpower is taking a battering.
    before i "quit" last time, i was smoking up to 20 a day. now i am only having at the most 10. yes, it is 10 too many.
    my world may not be on the verge of crashing right now, the last 5 years, i have experienced more than my fair share of dramas.
    there are days that it was an effort to get out of bed.
    soon, i will do this.
    i know i will.
    happy days to all!
  • penelopejane March 15, 2014 | 16:55
    When I tried to quit years ago, I was told to observe myself. I noticed that I had three phases to my effort cycle. Peaking with the challenge, then phase two of my cycle was a plateau, then slump, but not as far down as where I had come from. I think it is great that your cigarette intake has halved. You surely have other benefits from your efforts. You can set a new quit date. Why don't you be my quit buddy. I am having a smoke free
    day on Tuesday. I am going to keep having smoke free Tuesday's. Then I'm going to have smoke free Sunday's as well. It is a great idea to get back on track. In GROW we say 'Resume as quickly as possible and without fuss.' Be very kind to yourself. It really is best if you are gentle and care for yourself in every possible way. LOVE and RESPECT.
  • penelopejane March 18, 2014 | 1:08
    Hey KitKat- tomorrow is a non-smoking day for me. Would you like to join me? I don't feel ready. But I am having a go anyway. I only have something to gain. I tried to have a non-smoking day on Sunday as well. I only had two cigarettes. I meditated the night before. My breathing is deeper as a result and more relaxed too. Tuesdays and Sundays. I'll see you there.

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