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KitKat5284
Illawarra Shoalhaven
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23/02/2014
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feeling very lowly ...

Posted in Quit experiences 01 Mar 2014
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hello all,

usually i feel quite chipper when i am typing on here, today no so much. yesterday was quite an emotional day. i finally began to talk about how i was feeling to my husband, i was very teary and he was lovely. 

for no real reason, i snapped at something, so did he. words were said on both sides, and to cut a long yuck story short, i had a smoke. 

:-(

after we had both calmed down, i was ok. the cravings were gone. 

unfortunately this morning i wanted to talk about what happened, but really what will happen etc., blah blah blah, he wasnt in so much of a talkative mood, upset, upset :-(

......... i have not had one YET.

but i am sure struggling.

i was so proud of myself. 

i know i will be proud again. 

:-/

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  • mambogirl, Illawarra Shoalhaven March 01, 2014 | 14:04
    Hey Kit Kat ..1 smoke will not make you a smoker again.( don't kick yourself too much). I think this journey will have its down emotional days .. I felt last night I too could have succumbed to a smoke.. But nope :) .. I did give up for 3 months last time and feel i know what moods cravings and temptations are this time.. All i can say is it DOES get easier each week .. Clean the house , cupboards , iron.. keep busy x x Hang in there girl .. You'll be fine x
  • islander March 02, 2014 | 14:32
    I am struggling terribly! I keep giving in to the stress in my life and after 6 weeks on champix I am still smoking. Not sure what to do. Feeling like such a failure. Cant sleep, cant stop eating when i dont smoke. Dont know how to deal with everything i am going through in my life and quit smoking too. Doesnt seem to be working for me. Put on 10 lbs and still smoke although not as much as before. Getting so depressed I cant get out of my own way, dont feel like doing anything!
  • marioboo March 02, 2014 | 15:21
    Please don't beat yourself up over this! you are human, and I know exactly how you are feeling, I have been there. Just take one day at a time and don't give up. Even if you slip, keep moving forward. I have quit smoking more times than I count, and my son (who is 11) loves to remind me. But I refuse to let myself feel like a failure, Failure only comes to those who quit trying! So if it takes me a million times, I will continue trying. And the emotional effect has been hard on me too, I just take it one moment at a time. Please keep going forward!
  • KitKat5284, Illawarra Shoalhaven March 02, 2014 | 20:54
    Thank you lovelies for your encouraging responses.
    :-)
  • penelopejane March 05, 2014 | 2:57
    Your on a real roller coaster ride. You are an extremely courageous woman. It is going to be so worth it for you. People who quit do stabalize and are much more balanced and understanding later. this emotional upheaval is normal and temporary. I have yet to go through it but I do get weepy without smokes and that's okay. I have a Sister-in-law who is always asking me how my smoking is going? I would much prefer she asked how my quitting is going. You'd think She would know better than to dump on me. She is a Doctor of Psychology after all.

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