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Ariel2121
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9/08/2021
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Posted in Quit experiences 27 Aug 2021
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Reading everyone’s stories has prompted me to share mine..

I smoked on and off during the exciting ‘nineties’ at corporate functions/events as was the culture back then.

However, I could always just stop and it wasn’t a big deal.

Then when my own child became a teenager and began to smoke with all her friends, to fit in, so did I (so embarrassing for a middle aged woman) that’s how I started 6 years ago!

BUT I still (total denial) always thought of myself as a non smoker, it was just a fun thing I did.

Even going in for twice yearly surgical procedures where I had to declare how many cigs I consumed daily, I still thought of myself (imagine) as a non smoker!

My dog tried to tell me, my fingers were yellow and my breathing was ‘below par’ but still I thought I was a non smoker just indulging in a little fun.

Then, one day just recently, reality struck, when I bought my packet of cancer sticks and was happily inhaling 20 plus a day all by myself racing outside for a fix that I suddenly realised OMG I am a SMOKER!

I was ashamed, angry and disappointed.

So here I am, 2 days short of 5 weeks and I can breathe again, smell fresh air again and I am starting to feel a lot more like my old myself.

So everyone keep going, YOU are so worth fighting for.

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  • Happiness August 28, 2021 | 0:19
    Congratulations for waking up to reality. Anyone who smokes on a regular basis is an addicted smoker or soon will be. There are RARE EXCEPTIONS and no ex-smoker here is one of those few. It is N.O.P.E. OR DOPE for us!
  • NOPE-2021 August 28, 2021 | 6:13
    Hi Ariel2121 - welcome and thank you for sharing. Yes, reading these stories makes one want to join in on the fun! I enjoy reading and I enjoy writing. Congratulations on your nearly 5 weeks!!! Amazing job! I KNOW it is because I too am working on accumulating more non-smoking time (I'm closing in on 4 weeks). It looks like you are well on your way, strong and cheering others on. Way to go!!!
  • Leeann , Central Coast August 28, 2021 | 6:45
    Welcome Ariel2121 thank you for sharing your story, there is nothing to be embarrassed about, we have all been lured into the same trap, nevermind about at what age.. I am happy for you that you recognised the addiction and put them down. You are doing awesome and yes we are all worth fighting for🙌👍
  • Ariel2121 August 28, 2021 | 7:21
    Thank you so much Happiness, Nope-2021 and Leann for the warm welcome 🤗
  • softly40, Mid North Coast August 28, 2021 | 8:58
    Welcome Ariel 2121, Ah! self realization is so powerful, now your on your way to a state of total freedom, my start was the exciting 70's (my age is showing} when it was the norm in all areas of society. Now we are educated and the true collaboration between health and your desire to achieve a smoke free life is achievable, stay close and post often. NOPE (not one puff ever)

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