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I haven't, at any point this week, thought "I want a cigarette".
I haven't driven at breakneck speed to the nearest 24 Hour petrol station - burst into tears on the forecourt - bought cigarettes - only to hurl the packet in the nearest bin before bawling my eyes out all the way home. (Yes - these are milestones of my previous quits)
I think, for the first time, my mind has fully absorbed the notion that I am not missing anything...I'm not depriving myself of anything.
I'm living the dream NOW - I'm a non-smoker. The only person that can rob me of that is ME if I put a cigarette in my mouth.
I feel terrific mentally and not so great physically.
Sleep has been tricky since day three - can't fall asleep easily and I'm having weird technicolour dreams - not really nightmares but confusing, exhausting dreams. I read somewhere that it can take weeks or even months for a smoker's brain to readjust to the new levels of oxygen and blood flow brought about by quitting - hence headaches and sleep disturbance.
I still have that odd sensation of a large rat gnawing on the inside of my stomach - kinda like hunger mixed with anxiety.
Occasionally, I feel lost. I've spent 35 years perfecting my tapping, cupping, lighting, sucking, exhaling and stubbing out - of course it feels strange to suddenly stop all these constant little movements and gestures. Several times, I've been reading something on the PC and my hand has unconsciously started groping around on my desk looking for a cigarette packet out of sheer habit!
Flatulence. I won't elaborate any further than confiding that my dog has abandoned my bed in favour of her basket in the kitchen for the last few nights...
Skin rashes and itching. I googled this and found out it's a symptom of blood circulation improving - so a good thing, despite looking like I've been sleeping in an ants' nest!
All these strange little symptoms are proof of body repairs and readjustment so I can accept them as a positive thing!
I'm working hard on taking time out to relax. If I notice my hands have bunched into fists and my shoulders feel like the coat hanger is still in the shirt I'm wearing - I take time out and follow a guided meditation. If I can't do that - I'll just follow the same breathing techniques recommended for a panic attack - slow breaths in through the nose for the count of five....hold for five...exhale for five...until I feel the tension slip away.
Oh - and hunger! Yep. Ravenous...all the time. I'm carrying a flask of water everywhere and drinking frequently to fill myself up. Hopefully this will subside or I'll need another support forum just for chocolate mousse and Danish pastries....
Looking forward to my second week!
Love and good wishes to all! x
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