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Bej
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150 days quit today

Posted in Quit experiences 04 Jun 2021
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Hello everyone,

I got a reminder on my phone today that I was 150 days clean off cigarettes and alcohol. But I think on checking this site it’s actually 144.

After my last post I hit a really difficult period with the “junkie thinking”, autumn had settled in, it was getting cooler and I couldn’t put my finger on why on EARTH with all the benefits I was feeling why I was constantly thinking about having a cigarette. Do not get me wrong, I knew I wasn’t going to have a cigarette, but it was constantly on my mind.

These feelings lasted about three weeks in total and If I hadn’t been aware that complacency can hit I probably wouldn’t have got through it so easily.

I realised in this more challenging time that smoking is not a part of my story anymore. It is my painful memory, a triggered memory with the 20

year history of chugging away, this is very likely to occur, I literally used them as a best friend often.

I got through though because like a toxic relationship, when I really decided to leave, I decided truly that I was going to own me from now on. I wanted to be in control of what I put in my body. I want to be in control of how I feel when I wake up in the morning, how others smell me, how I spend my money, pay my bills, handle stress, play. I gave all that power away to a filthy choking smoke, and for all those 20 years of my life, they gave me nothing, not one thing, except poor health, lack of resources, desperation and ongoing stress. They enhanced my own feelings of loneliness as in the end, I was standing alone in the cold for them.

So here I am checking in, feeling brilliant, yet vigilant, and wishing you all, no matter where you are on your journey, kindness! When you got it for yourself, you can do anything.

All the best, until next time :))

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  • Happiness June 05, 2021 | 4:33
    Fabulous post. I am happy to hear you enjoy your status of a happy non-smoker and have reclaimed what is rightfully yours. Congratulations!

    We can most definitely do more thinking positive than negative.
    We can all quit smoking.
  • softly40, Mid North Coast June 05, 2021 | 7:51
    Great post Bej and congratulations on 150 days, or 144 days free from smoking. I still use NOPE (not one puff ever) in my mind every day even after 800 days.

    You are doing so well, you have learnt to be honest with yourself and you are sharing your success with others, congratulations.
  • Jessfreeof, Northern NSW June 05, 2021 | 8:31
    Congrats Bej and well done to you. I just read back on your stories. You bring Joy to recovering from years of smoking abuse. Have a magical 🌅😊
  • Bej June 06, 2021 | 15:07
    Thanks guys. Again as always so supportive! It’s like having a little non smoking family!! Good luck Jessfreeof. It’s so handy having favourite posts and using them to go back too for motivation! Good luck..
  • Shekwits, Northern NSW June 12, 2021 | 7:28
    Thanks for posting your experience. What an empowering feeling to take control and leave smoking behind. I feel the same and many of my thoughts about what cigarettes did for me echo yours. I will never go back and like you, take life on my own terms. Congratulations

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