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First week recap:
Status: Married, 3 kids(9,7,3)
My wife is a non-smoker, hates that I smoke, and is pretty much taking charge with everything while I become useless and suffer through the withdraws. She's very supportive, and gave me the okay to pretty much do anything that I needed to stop smoking.
I'm 32 years old.
I smoke about a pack and a half - 2 packs a day.
Longest time I've quit was 3 months, using medication.
Method: Cold Turkey (First Time)
Plan: I had a 5 day vacation from work, goal was to stay home and power through the really horrible parts, and hopefully snowball when I returned to work.
Started out the usual way, I've quit 1 day so many times now that nothing really stood out, other than thinking about smoking 24/7. Day 2 and 3 were pretty horrible, the anxiety sucks, constantly arguing with myself about smoking. I laid out on the sofa and binged watched Netflix and played video games, trying to keep my mind occupied. I would take random deep breathes when the anxiety got bad.
There is a lot of excitement on the morning of Day 4, since after 3 days all the nicotine leaves the body, and it’s widely considered that the first 3 days are the worst. But day 4 and 5 still sucked. My sole focus is not having 1 cigarette. Because that's what got me all the other times, the one cigarette. I bought a metric ton of jolly ranchers, and I watch TV and play video games. I'm certain at this point I'm the favorite parent, since I don't want to deal with any BS my kids get anything they want. Day 6, first day back at work, and the real test. Since my wife doesn't smoke, and hates that I do, and nags me about it constantly, majority of my smoking is done away from the house. I was extremely miserable, as my down time at work was normally my smoke breaks, now it is spent being confused. I don't know what to do. I'm also having a lot of issues focusing on my work. And I'm just thinking about smoking. I spent a good majority of the day telling my coworkers how miserable I was that I was quitting, and was surprised to learn that three of my co-workers were former smokers. Each told me it gets easier and keep it up, but their words of encouragement did not help me or make it easier. Because I know it gets easier, my issue is the symptoms and unhappiness I was feeling right then. Though talking about my misery did feel like it was helping, temporarily. I went through a roller coaster of emotions, but eventually made it through the work day without smoking and went back home to my natural habitat, jolly ranchers and video games. Day 7 was very similar to day 6, which leads me to now, midway through day 8. This morning was the first time I felt cheerful and lively, not really burdened with withdraws. It didn’t last long, a few hours into work and the withdraws hit and I started feeling the anxiety. The urges to go just have one cigarette got intense. So I decided to look online for anything that could raise my morale. I came across a news article that said only 3-5% of smokers quit cold turkey after one year. Morale hit rock bottom. So I googled day 8 quit smoking and found this website, I got inspired by everyone sharing their misery so I wanted to share mine as well. =]
First week conclusion: I’m miserable. I want to smoke, but I’m powering through it. For now I’m trying not to put myself in any stressful situations to avoid any triggers. Obviously my life can’t sustain jolly ranchers and video games forever, but for now it’s working.
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