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Soren
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First week down!

Posted in Quit experiences 04 Jun 2021
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First week recap:

Status: Married, 3 kids(9,7,3)

My wife is a non-smoker, hates that I smoke, and is pretty much taking charge with everything while I become useless and suffer through the withdraws. She's very supportive, and gave me the okay to pretty much do anything that I needed to stop smoking.

I'm 32 years old.

I smoke about a pack and a half - 2 packs a day.

Longest time I've quit was 3 months, using medication.

This attempt:

Method: Cold Turkey (First Time)

Plan: I had a 5 day vacation from work, goal was to stay home and power through the really horrible parts, and hopefully snowball when I returned to work.

Started out the usual way, I've quit 1 day so many times now that nothing really stood out, other than thinking about smoking 24/7. Day 2 and 3 were pretty horrible, the anxiety sucks, constantly arguing with myself about smoking. I laid out on the sofa and binged watched Netflix and played video games, trying to keep my mind occupied. I would take random deep breathes when the anxiety got bad.

There is a lot of excitement on the morning of Day 4, since after 3 days all the nicotine leaves the body, and it’s widely considered that the first 3 days are the worst. But day 4 and 5 still sucked. My sole focus is not having 1 cigarette. Because that's what got me all the other times, the one cigarette. I bought a metric ton of jolly ranchers, and I watch TV and play video games. I'm certain at this point I'm the favorite parent, since I don't want to deal with any BS my kids get anything they want. Day 6, first day back at work, and the real test. Since my wife doesn't smoke, and hates that I do, and nags me about it constantly, majority of my smoking is done away from the house. I was extremely miserable, as my down time at work was normally my smoke breaks, now it is spent being confused. I don't know what to do. I'm also having a lot of issues focusing on my work. And I'm just thinking about smoking. I spent a good majority of the day telling my coworkers how miserable I was that I was quitting, and was surprised to learn that three of my co-workers were former smokers. Each told me it gets easier and keep it up, but their words of encouragement did not help me or make it easier. Because I know it gets easier, my issue is the symptoms and unhappiness I was feeling right then. Though talking about my misery did feel like it was helping, temporarily. I went through a roller coaster of emotions, but eventually made it through the work day without smoking and went back home to my natural habitat, jolly ranchers and video games. Day 7 was very similar to day 6, which leads me to now, midway through day 8. This morning was the first time I felt cheerful and lively, not really burdened with withdraws. It didn’t last long, a few hours into work and the withdraws hit and I started feeling the anxiety. The urges to go just have one cigarette got intense. So I decided to look online for anything that could raise my morale. I came across a news article that said only 3-5% of smokers quit cold turkey after one year. Morale hit rock bottom. So I googled day 8 quit smoking and found this website, I got inspired by everyone sharing their misery so I wanted to share mine as well. =]

First week conclusion: I’m miserable. I want to smoke, but I’m powering through it. For now I’m trying not to put myself in any stressful situations to avoid any triggers. Obviously my life can’t sustain jolly ranchers and video games forever, but for now it’s working.

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  • Jessfreeof, Northern NSW June 04, 2021 | 15:43
    Love your story Soren entertaining and honest. I can so relate I am on day 5 today going it cold turkey. All the best to you and keep up the great work 👍🙌
  • matik_one June 04, 2021 | 15:59
    Hi Soren, very honest story, you put me back to my firsy weeks feeling, try to keep in your effort and next benefits of non smoking will arrive.. you will be even happy.. :) in this stage is it what you want now vs what you want the most.. try to keep it simple, and consider successfull day when you didn't smoke and be proud of yourself.. and try hard to be one of those 3-5%, don't allow somebody else take your place there.. :) all the beat and come back soon with updates..
  • Happiness June 04, 2021 | 22:24
    Hi Soren.....
    Surveys are slanted. Questions like have you ever tried quitting smoking cold turkey before? Sure. Who hasn't?

    What did I know decades ago? How badly did I want it? Was it a last minute new years resolution?

    We achieve what we want to achieve. And we believe what we want to believe.

    Why are you feeling so miserable? You should be feeling prouder and more self confident every day. When is the last time you challenged yourself?

    Your wife harps about you quitting. You get it, yet resent it. Be honest.

    Quitting smoking has to come from YOUR desire to quit. It has to be your decision , for your reasons. Health, wealth and freedom encompass most reasons.
    Do you like setting fire to your money? Wouldn't it be better spend on Family weekends or new video games? The kids enjoy your time and look up to you.
    Do you want them to think smoking is a good idea?

    Make your goal to be the best role model possible. Show them that you can do what you put your mind to.

    The mind is powerful.
    Be happy you are finally on the road you should have chosen long ago.
    Be happy that you found us and are learning.
    Be happy that you have made it through the hardest days and that they do get easier.
    Be happy that your family supports you through the mood swings.
    Think positive. Quitting can be much easier with a change of attitude.
    You can be one of the 3.5% . Again, we believe all the lies and deceit.
    Who is anyone to judge you?
    Of course NRT manufacturers want you buy their product. In the fine print they also say their product works best with counselling. That's us!
    Funny thing is that we don't really need their products ........it is all in the mind!
  • softly40, Mid North Coast June 05, 2021 | 7:41
    Soren, welcome, and congrats for deciding to quit. Your wife has tried to help you by letting you rest and relax, which is not such a good thing. You need to participate in life and feel happy to be doing more than you used to. This will give you the (high) and happy thoughts follow when you achieve something, without that cigarette.

    Your learning should be your focus not just stopping the smokes. Learn about yourself and why you want to stop smoking, Learn about what Nicotine does to your mind and body, accept your position with a happy heart, this is your journey and no one person or one Habit or one drug should be able to pull you back into its arms with false comfort.

    Stay in touch read and learn and post often

    We have all been through this, so it is not said lightly.

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