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Never Going Back

Posted in Staying quit 01 Feb 2021

So today the gf and I took the kids shopping to a big box store

Its an outting we look forward to since covid has shut it all down.. even skating or tobogganing is 🚫

It’s ok tho.. as long as it’s for the good of the compromised

So as I was about to drop them off in the front entrance ..since it was -30 Celsius today .. I catch a glimpse of 3 smokers by the doors .. maskless and puffing away

I do a drive by and a detour and now it’s down to a lone smoker.. so I dump them off and go park

As I walk over I notice the lone smoker has started on a new ciggie.. it’s freezing outside and here he is still smoking away.

As I walk by I catch a whiff and it really reeks to me.. like something really stale .. plus the sight of him hunched over .. turns my stomach

So I think to myself.. Is this how others viewed me when I smoked??

It’s 65 days .. and I don’t ever wann as go back

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  • Happiness February 01, 2021 | 11:56
    Knowing there is nothing for you to want to go back to is a great feeling. You know that you are in control and don't need to be looking over your shoulder for the nicotine to jump out unawares.
    Congratulations. I am sure that your family is very proud of you too. We do have the power to change things if we have the courage and belief to try.
  • Iwant2 February 01, 2021 | 12:14
    Thanks Happy

    You’re such a great voice on here.. we’re lucky to have you.

    This site is so helpful .. it’s amazing

  • New chapter February 01, 2021 | 19:15
    That’s Awesome I want 2,I myself was in a similar position when I saw the smokers outside the pub,I knew I’d never go back to it,it’s a great liberating experience ain’t it 😀Have a great smokefree day
  • Happiness February 01, 2021 | 23:57
    Well folks, Guess who is back! Should you happen to read this Chlowe , we wish everyone one success in their quitting smoking. We just prefer to stick to those matters pertaining to addiction rather than for you to try and entertain us with your adventures. Please stick to reading and learning rather than writing and use those fingers and your time for other important things in your life.

    When we quit looking back and giving any credulence to what we are no longer interested in it is much easier to move forward. Think positive! Don't debate, it only gives it more of a chance to grab hold. Ignore the little beastie and it will eventually go away. We can quit smoking!
  • Iwant2 February 02, 2021 | 4:41
    Heya New Chapter

    You’re totally right.. it’s a great feeling and I’m super happy you’ve experienced it too

    Keep on living life smoke free dude 🙃👍

  • Iwant2 February 02, 2021 | 4:45

    Some people need the drama in their lives to fill a void I guess

    I read Chloes posts and I just shook my head. She’s out there fo’sho....

    We’re here to help each other through our mess.. we don’t need any more tension

    Sheesh 🙄
  • softly40 , Mid North Coast February 02, 2021 | 8:42
    The taste of freedom is wonderful, Iwant2, such as shame I remember huddling around shop fronts mostly with the staff from the retail stores. I didn't like myself then, now I can choose my own friends, this site was a start. Well done
  • Iwant2 February 02, 2021 | 13:06
    Hiya Softly

    Freedom from ciggies is a great feeling. I didn’t even like smoking but I did it anyway ....

    That was crazy

    And now we smell better

  • Red-67 February 03, 2021 | 4:37
    Yep.. Those were the days :) Standing out in the cold, or the heat, or even trying to find a place out of the rain, just to get that smoke in.. Could not wait to finish a meal, or a movie :) In some cases, could not wait to stop the car, so you could get out, and have that smoke ! Yep,, SMOKING MAKES YOU STUPID :)
    It is GREAT to be free :)

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