It has been an interesting week since I chose to transform my relationship with TV. The first few days saw me craving and caving (i.e., wanting to watch and letting myself indulge). Many of the days I watched less TV than usual and several of the days had me binging for hours on end. What I found interesting was noticing how my day was crafted around TV.
Before joining here, I was basically aware that TV played an important part in my life, consumed many waking hours, and even prevented me from getting sufficient sleep. I would not just stay parked in front of the tele late into the evening, sometimes drifting off, and then taking myself to bed I would continue watching the show on my iphone. What I find fascinating and most powerful is that since choosing to quit the TV addiction and posting here, I am now keenly aware of just how much every waking moment was planned around giving me the excuse to watch TV.
Being part of this community and availing myself of the tools and posting here is, everyday, making it possible for me to affirmatively choose what I do with my attention and the actions I take. For example, yesterday I simply unplugged my TV. Willpower on its own is insufficient to have me transform my life. It may get the ball rolling, but every time I slide back into old behaviors I get on my case and think myself a worthless excuse for a man. So, I chose to create an environment that makes it easy for me to live my values and extremely difficult for me to feed my addiction.
After work yesterday, instead of settling into the coach for several hours of tele, I worked on a project (one I had been procrastinating about and beating myself up for not moving it ahead), advancing it significantly. Wow, that felt great. I then went to bed at a responsible hour, with a book and without my iphone, and had a lovely, restful sleep.
One day in a row living my life as my best self!
Thanks everyone for being here and making this a safe and productive space for me to embrace my life.
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