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mchldnzngr
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14/11/2020
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Quitting again after a relapse

Posted in Quit experiences 05 Dec 2020
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My last cigarette was November 18th 2020 at 8:30 PM. The first 2 weeks wasn't very difficult. In my other story I shared that I quit for 5 years. So I know what to expect when stopping the smoking. Yesterday at night as I was drifting off to sleep. My mind wanted smoking so badly that it was trying to convince me to get drunk and buy a pack of smokes just to say to me that I know I can do this once and stop for some time before doing it again. Does that make sense to anybody? I know and realize that booze and cigarettes makes me feel awful, tired, moody, messes my breathing up and makes me gain weight. I want to do something that literally makes me feel like Lucifer's kingdom has just moved into my body? Not at all. The cravings were very intense last night, but I went to sleep and thought about it this morning about how stupid it would be to listen to the craving monsters that are trying to get me to hurt myself by giving in to the temptation to start again even if it's only for one day. It's BS and I'm not having it. I also wanted to let the sharing community know that my computer refuses to let me into the comment section or other stories. I don't know what the issues are, but when you comment, I get it in my e-mail and cannot respond to you. I thank you ahead of time for sharing with me and want you to know I do see and read what is expressed and appreciate the comments and experiences shared.

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  • matik_one December 05, 2020 | 4:04
    I got such hard day as well sometimes about 2 weeks after quit.. the best thing is such days aren't many.. I've got 1 and half.. it's not so big price for freedom.. go for it..
  • Happiness December 05, 2020 | 6:20
    Good to see that you followed through and quit earlier than the date you had set. Having quit for 5 years you know not to engage in a debate with the cravings and give them any power over you. They can be tricky and sneak up on you when you are tired and least suspect it. Just remember NOPE and turn your thoughts elsewhere is the best defense.

    You are doing great. Keep it up! Sorry to hear that you can't participate with comments but it's great that you posted!

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