Have 471 days under my belt! Yipee. This is sort of the best that I have ever felt. It's like I feel so much self-dignification and the need for more betterment. What else can I do to try getting better? The ideas that pop up sound outstanding. I have two little projects in the wings, just dealing with words and forming correct grammatical and worthwhile sentences. It could end up helping me alot. That is not the only purpose. I would love to carry them through with so much passion and dedication, to prove that I can be serious and that I can be taken seriously like a grown-up. (That is something still to come).
I went back to nicotine patches for a while for some of the cravings. Not knowing what exactly irked me, those were the strongest that I have ever felt. Yet, today I step up and decide to quit those. People can achieve what they want to do sometime with will power and some outside guidance factors. But the strength comes from the inside. A better day starts right this second at 10:55pm where I am from (Wichita, KS, USA).
I slipped up for a while also, but I am not really going to count that because it was a sort of expected thing. I learned to not misplace my faith in others anymore. Hey, look at that. That person might not be as worthwhile as I thought. I can begin one more time. I really can.
I still kind of want to stick with the 471, but I know it always that I let down myself for a few cancer sticks. It means that I need to start that again and that is such a big number. Well, maybe not, it says 'days smokefree'. I can subtract. It should be somewhere around 389. I didn't log into this site and do the button-pressing. Anyhow, I wish I could have been honest. Knowing me, it would have meant that I did not continue down that path. Still gonna say 471 though.
"Who is this person?"
"I don't know; everyone thinks in people. I don't want to be any different anymore."
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