After chaining for 47 years I went cold turkey for 4 days. Thought I was so smart before having a giant meltdown & smoking 4 cigarettes while shaking with rage.
This morning, woke up happy again, told myself happy birthday, now put a patch on & get back up on the horse.
For the first time ever I'm not berating myself as a failure. Me thinks I'm a much happier more relaxed person today. Even if I'm another year older.