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Erin91
Illawarra Shoalhaven
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30/06/2020
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Day 1

Posted in Getting started 30 Jun 2020
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Today is day 1 and I’m struggling. I feel like my heart is racing, like I’m going to be sick and I am so moody but I can do this and I will!! I need to do this!!! Wish me luck <3

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  • Chwoe, Southern NSW July 01, 2020 | 10:54
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    Who can relate?
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    I don't wanna be alive
    I don't wanna be alive
    I just wanna d*e today
    I just wanna d*e
    I don't wanna be alive
    I don't wanna be alive
    I just wanna d*e
    And let me tell you why
    All this other sh*t I'm talkin' 'bout they think they know it
    I've been praying for somebody to save me, no one's heroic
    And my life don't even matter
    I know it, I know it, I know I'm hurting deep down but can't show it
    I never had a place to call my own
    I never had a home
    Ain't nobody callin' my phone
    Where you been? Where you at? What's on your mind?
    They say every life precious but nobody care about mine
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    Who can relate?
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    I want you to be alive
    I want you to be alive
    You don't gotta d*e today
    You don't gotta d*e
    I want you to be alive
    I want you to be alive
    You don't gotta die
    Now lemme tell you why
    It's the very first breath
    When your head's been drowning underwater
    And it's the lightness in the air
    When you're there
    Chest to chest with a lover
    It's holding on, though the road's long
    And seeing light in the darkest things
    And when you stare at your reflection
    Finally knowing who it is
    I know that you'll thank God you did
    I know where you been, where you are, where you goin'
    I know you're the reason I believe in life
    What's the day without a little night?
    I'm just tryna shed a little light
    It can be hard
    It can be so hard
    But you gotta live right now
    You got everything to give right now
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    Who can relate?
    I've been on the low
    I been taking my time
    I feel like I'm out of my mind
    It feel like my life ain't mine
    I finally wanna be alive (finally wanna be alive)
    I finally wanna be alive
    I don't wanna d*e today (hey)
    I don't wanna d*e
    I finally wanna be alive (finally wanna be alive)
    I finally wanna be alive (oh)
    I don't wanna d*e (no, I don't wanna d*e)
    I don't wanna d*e
    (I just wanna live)
    (I just wanna live)
    Pain don't hurt the same, I know
    The lane I travel feels alone
    But I'm moving 'til my legs give out
    And I see my tears melt in the snow
    But I don't wanna cry
    I don't wanna cry anymore
    I wanna feel alive
    I don't even wanna die anymore
    Oh I don't wanna
    I don't wanna
    I don't even wanna die anymore

    😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😇😁😁😁😁🚭🚭🚭🚭🚭🚭🚭🚭 this song is really inspiring!! hope it helps xoxo
  • Skippy, Murrumbidgee July 01, 2020 | 4:36
    Be calm it will be okay .I was afraid scared to be without my in my mind best friend,but really not our friend just a habit and habits can be broken.For me no more standing out in the cold ,no more people’s dirty looks be cause I lit a cig. Wow it is really worth I smell good my clothes smell good .So u can do this u are the boss I did it you can .I smoked for over 40 years...
  • Happiness July 01, 2020 | 2:53
    Hi Erin. Reading our stories and seeing all the success makes the idea less scary. Once I believed that i could quit smoking,...I did. In fact, it was easy. A little discomfort for a while for most people, but so many rewards . It is well worth the sacrifices that you feel that you are making now. When you understand that smoking robbed you of health and money and gave absolutely nothing in return except resignation to being a life long smoker, you will join us all here in the quest for freedom. It is achievable. Use the tools we share, the support, the belief!
  • quell June 30, 2020 | 14:24
    It will get worse, but then it will get better. The first few days are the hardest. Eat fruit, exercise, walk, run...distract yourself. You will be tired so don't be ashamed to relax and sleep also. Your mind is just playing tricks on you right now and your heart is healing. Stay in control.

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