I’m 30 & am attempting to quit smoking for the billionth time. I literally attempt every time I finish a packet, and will smoke more to get rid of them quickly, only to end up buying another packet and then having to chain smoke that packet just to try get rid of them & try quit again. It will last Sometimes a day, a week, sometimes a few months. But I always end up back on them. I have quit for a few years back in my 20s when I was pregnant/in a better headspace.
I remember id always said I’d quit before I was 25, then 27, and now 30. I’ve smoked since I was 14. I hate everything about it. I hate my kids smelling it on me, I hate the chest pain, the anxiety that I’ve developed some sort of disease, the shortness of breath, the headaches, EVERYTHING.
It’s gotten the point where I need to chain smoke 3 cigarettes in a row each time I smoke to relieve cravings. I’ve read Allen Carr’s book previously which worked the first time for a few years, but I’ve re read it that many times now that I feel like it just falls on deaf ears because each time I fail I lose more and more hope.
This time I’m going to try the gum and patches and use this forum, which I haven’t done before.
I think my biggest downfall is how much I associate smoking with my house I live in, I smoke outside and every time I see my outdoor table the cravings are intense. I’ve also never drank alcohol without smoking, so anytime I want a drink I crave them. It’s extra hard at this time being stuck at home with 3 kids during the pandemic. My biggest triggers seem to be stress, boredom & relaxation (when I drink). I know deep down it doesn’t relieve any of that at all, but the cravings are so intense.
I have one cigarette left now & am feeling really anxious about this next attempt. I should be feeling excited for a better life, but I honestly think I’ve attempted that many times that I’ve lost all hope. Wish me luck!
Thanks for listening to my vent 😊😜
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