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99 days smokefree, not easy

Posted in Quit experiences 12 Oct 2019
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It has not been one bit easy to meet the demands of a smokefree life. It is easy in some respects, but I seem to fail in others. I am not over the cravings, but it seems to be getting better because I eat something or just have a glass or sip of water when they happen. I have become hyponatremic though, which means basically that I am over diluting my body. I have low sodium and chloride. It is hard for me too because I get slightly confused. But that really is of my own making. I have not seemed to be able to get over it after a really actually quite a long time. I don't quite know what to take with this, but it came along when I stopped smoking.

Other than that I feel free, like in the aspects of freedom. Not all free, but free for now. Something just is strangely gone from my inner being. I don't mean to be cruel to myself, I wanted to say something different than 'a weight has been lifted off my shoulder'. It's good. I feel like I'm funny again for real.

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  • Happiness October 12, 2019 | 16:03
    Hi r.m.d. At day 19 you seemed to know all the benefits of not smoking and having few cravings. I am not sure how you mean it hasn't been easy to meet the demands of being a non-smoker. You are young and as much as you think a lot about being healthy for the future, perhaps it is peer pressure that is difficult? Smoking had far more pressures and demands if you ask me. Don't smoke here, wait till break, hope i don't reek of smoke, and the list goes on. As a non-smoker we are much freer, but not if your mind and thoughts always go back to the slave driver.

    It sounds like you have had a troubled past and losing loved ones takes time to heal. Maybe you are finally starting to feel like your old funny, carefree self and that is a good thing. Making amends, seeking forgiveness is all good too, but you need to forgive yourself and nurture all of your good qualities too. Quitting smoking may be proof to yourself that you can surprise others with your abilities. Work on being the person that you want to be.

    May i suggest that when you have a craving you find some other good habit to combat it with. Deep breathing, or meditation come to mind and will not cause hyponatremic. You are doing great, and maybe someone else has better insight than I. Share with us when you feel the need. We are a community here for each other and wishing you all the best.
  • Happiness October 14, 2019 | 7:31
    I apologize for the mistype. An awesome 99 days quit is quite an accomplishment. Keep up the good work!

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