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Seashell virgo
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7/09/2019
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Posted in Getting started 09 Sep 2019
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Right this is the 6th time I’ve quit . I beat myself up for being such a dope and hate that I want a cigarette again . Ive been smoking rollies for a few years and then found organic tobacco which gave me a false sense of safety , I know it’s not logical but the mind felt better in the delusion haha . Now 9 days smoke free and I’ve had the worst back spasms that have almost crippled me and the pain excruciating so I nearly gave in but I didn’t. After decades of smoking I realise the smoke is a bad substitute for loneliness . I’ve had to cut toxic people out so the toxic smoke has to to . Wish me luck . I’ve never reached out before but I am now as I realise I have to love myself enough to quit and be healthy . Good luck to all 🙏🏽😊

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  • Red-67 September 09, 2019 | 1:04
    I think it is good to think of our addiction to smoking, much like a bad relationship. We think it is good, and we think we enjoy it, but the whole time, your loving partner, is stabbing you in the back, wasting your time, and stealing your money.. Once you open your eyes, and see the truth, why would anyone be willing to take them back ?? Admit to yourself, that you were a slave to a cigarette. Set yourself free, and don't ever want for another one :)
    It really can be as easy as you make it. I was a 45 year smoker, and only tried to quit once, over 2 1/2 years ago now. You CAN do it too..
  • Red-67 September 09, 2019 | 1:06
    OH, You may have paused 5 times before, but you did not QUIT. :)
    Make this one a real, successful, QUIT :)
  • softly40, Mid North Coast September 09, 2019 | 8:13
    Welcome Seashell, there are many reasons why you caved in before, and that is not a crime, but it is not a good enough reason to try to keep the demon Nicotine in control of your emotions.

    Loneliness should not be underestimated I lost my partner through ill health, this was devastating, but the hardest part was not having or getting some comfort from others, we didn't have forums in those days. It is truly crippling, and you do substitute many feelings with a cigarette.

    It helped me to realize that if I thought of Nicotine as the poison in my life it helped. If I faced my feelings and turned them around mentally this was difficult but a big plus.

    Good on those who have had success with one quit, it just means they were better prepared and/or joined a support group and read a lot about the harm that Nicotine does to our physical health and gradually seeps into our mental association of dealing with a problem which is a kind of distorted reasoning.

    Keep reading posts to begin with we all have a lot to offer and recognise our own personal human frailties.
  • Happiness September 09, 2019 | 14:58
    Welcome to the community. By joining this forum, you will not feel alone and confused if you continue to read and learn about nicotine. We are here to cheer you on and help in any way. We understand what you are going through and someone generally has a tip if you are in need. Lots of great stories, advice and genuine caring support here. You can do this Seashell virgo.
  • Seashell virgo September 10, 2019 | 22:07
    Thank you all for the support and it helps to know we’re on the same team . 🙏🏽🦋👍🤞 10 days no smoking 🚭. I don’t feel good yet which surprises me . Is it normal to feel awful and not have the energy back ? When I’ve quit before I felt better really fast so I’m getting worried 😟

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