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Kirk88
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Facing fear

Posted in Quit experiences 05 Sep 2019
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I have been smoke free for 18 days. GO ME!!

In the last few days I've started noticing some changes/symptoms in myself. The biggest of them being anxiety. I had a moment a couple of hours ago where I blamed being nicotine free for these 'new' issues but then I got thinking about this forum and remembered what you would all tell me about having a positive mindset and I realised that these arnt 'new' issues at all I've had them all along its just now I can't hide them behind the nicotine and instead I'm forced to address my issues. After sitting with this realisation for a while it has occurred to me that one of the reasons I 'didn't want to quit' to begin with was the fear of the damage I had already done to my body and knowing that I would have to face the consequences of my poor choices. I'm so glad I have quit now instead of waiting another 1,5, or 10 years and I'm so grateful for the opportunity to face my anxiety and work through my triggers I know it will allow me to be a better mother, partner and person.

Heres to facing our fears and learning from our mistakes.

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  • Happiness September 06, 2019 | 0:48
    Wow ! You Go Girl! I can't believe the change in you and the change particularly in your attitude. I am glad that you found the reasons to continue on your journey, and so happy that you have made it successfully. Now you just have to remember NOPE....not one puff ever! You have chosen to be a non-smoker and worked hard for that privilege, don't blow it! We cannot change the past but only make our future a brighter one. Congrats!
  • softly40, Mid North Coast September 06, 2019 | 7:43
    So true Kirk88, these are old issues we couldn't face at the time, instead we chose to go have a smoke, then you think everything will right itself. Ah for that one minute we let ourselves off the hook, only to get hooked up to a worse situation, it never works.

    You are learning fast and great news on 18 days. Yes a positive mind set can deliver the same result without the damage to yourself. New good habits are on the way instead. You go girl.
  • Nuts September 06, 2019 | 15:06
    Every one of us has said to ourselves ' Bugga it , I will go and have a smoke ' when things go wrong or we are angry over something silly. We all thought that a smoke would fix it all. We were all wrong. It doesnt fix anything, just creates new worries. Yes we all did damage to our bodies, but we dont have to keep doing it. Dont worry about the past, we cant change it. I love your new positive attitude. You have got this and will be a winner. Well done. I am very proud of you
  • Nodrag September 06, 2019 | 19:17
    Hi all. I’m new at this. 11 days without nicotine. I couldn’t have done it without this forum that I accidentally found. Thankyou all for your stories. You have kept me on track.
  • Robn September 06, 2019 | 19:51
    Kirk, you are amazing.....read back over your past posts...you have changed a negative attitude into a positive one...fantastic. We all can look at the the doom and gloom and think “oh well the damage is done” and then we can look to a brighter and healthier future by not continuing to damage ourselves. I am so happy that you have found the right mindset...you keep it and use it in all of your daily life.....you will see how much happier it makes you. Proud of you....you have got this.
  • Nuts September 07, 2019 | 11:39
    Hi No Drag. 11 days is great. You are over the worst. Hang in there. You can do it. It is so worth it. You should post your own story and then you will get an e.mail when you get a reply.
  • Nodrag September 07, 2019 | 14:46
    Thanks Nuts. I’ve been a smoker for 48 years and in the last 3 months I’ve had 3 really bad colds. The sicker I got, the more I smoked and so on. It got to the stage I was having trouble breathing which was rather scary. Was gasping for breath every time I moved. It was time to give the nicotine away. I stayed in bed for the first 4 days of quitting. I found it kept me calm and there were no temptations. Yesterday, my 11th day was the most difficult. While I was at work I planned to buy a packet when I knocked off, smoke just one and throw the rest away. Well I surprised myself and didn’t buy them. I was feeling rather proud of myself. I’ve read all of your comments on the forum and you all say it gets easier. Hope it’s soon.
  • Happiness September 07, 2019 | 15:30
    Hi NoDrag. If you have been reading the posts, i hope you understand the NOPE is the mantra of most importance. Just one PuFF, let alone a whole cigarette can set you back to Day 1, Square 1. Don't ever risk it. You are doing amazingly well, on your own, let us help. We have all been there, and guess what???We survived and we will all tell you it is worth it. Don't give up. Don't look back. Read and Lean and Believe. YOu have got this. Find the motivation if you need to ....but..do NOT ever give up.!!
  • Nuts September 07, 2019 | 15:48
    Hey No Drag. Do you really believe that you will throw the pack away after just one. You cant have just one. You cant even have one puff. Yoy will be right back where you started. Do you want to start on day 1 again. Hang in there mate. It really does get easier. A lot of what you think are cravings are really just thoughts of a smoke. Its a habit, not a craving. Be positive and determined and you will be the winner in so many ways. Be very proud of yourself 👍😊
  • Kirk88 September 07, 2019 | 20:10
    Hi no drag! I'm so glad you stumbled on this forum. The people here are an amazing group and so real and supportive. Congrats on 11 days that's an amazing accomplishment.
  • Nuts September 07, 2019 | 22:31
    Hi Kirk. Must be day 20 for you. Wow 3 weeks tomorrow. Its starting to add up now. Thats a great feeling. Before you know it , it will be a month, 6 months, a year. Hang in there sweetheart, you are going great. 👍😊
  • Kirk88 September 08, 2019 | 12:39
    Hi nuts. Yep I am 3 weeks today and just stopped in to post my weekly update. It's hard to believe I am 3/4 of the way through my first month.

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