I think that my own journey is more of one of miraculous benefits.
I feel so much better than when I was smoking. It is a pitfall by humanity to encourage smoking. As the gateway into so many drugs, what can people do to not make the world so overly excited by cigarettes? I really don't have a precise answer, being a simple-minded individual. Some genius has the answer.
I went from smoking 1.5 packs of 20 to zero in no time at all. It took me by surprise when it happened. But it did, and now there is no coming back.
I have saved probably more than $200, and my family saved me. We have grown together through this, and I know there is more to come. No more of the Rebecca that was bitter, haggard while being 26/27, or the self-loathing of falling upon the face of a tack every time I breathed just one more. I am renewed with my family. I see the light already. It sits in front of me as we speak and still I am too shy to speak to my father (on his birthday).
What do I say?
"Father, how can I redeem myself in your eyes," or maybe, "Father, what can I do now to make amends for what I have done to you, Mom, and myself?"
I was a good kid, I swear it.
Thank you for listening,
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