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Feels like a miracle

Posted in Reasons to quit 14 Aug 2019

I think that my own journey is more of one of miraculous benefits.

I feel so much better than when I was smoking. It is a pitfall by humanity to encourage smoking. As the gateway into so many drugs, what can people do to not make the world so overly excited by cigarettes? I really don't have a precise answer, being a simple-minded individual. Some genius has the answer.

I went from smoking 1.5 packs of 20 to zero in no time at all. It took me by surprise when it happened. But it did, and now there is no coming back.

I have saved probably more than $200, and my family saved me. We have grown together through this, and I know there is more to come. No more of the Rebecca that was bitter, haggard while being 26/27, or the self-loathing of falling upon the face of a tack every time I breathed just one more. I am renewed with my family. I see the light already. It sits in front of me as we speak and still I am too shy to speak to my father (on his birthday).

What do I say?

"Father, how can I redeem myself in your eyes," or maybe, "Father, what can I do now to make amends for what I have done to you, Mom, and myself?"

I was a good kid, I swear it.

Thank you for listening,


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  • Happiness August 15, 2019 | 1:13
    Hi Rebecca. A simple Happy Birthday and I love you would suffice I am sure. If you really think more is necessary for them to see the change in you, why not write a simple Forgive Me letter....words cannot express...... You cannot change the past, only the future. You were smart enough to come here, I believe that you are smart enough to find a way. One on one lunch, golf, pool , event would be a nice gift and chance to reunite. As a parent, I am sure you are already forgiven if you have been sincere about changing and it is acknowledged.

    It is good to make amends and rid yourself of the burdens of the past. Start moving forward once again, it is time...just like quitting smoking. A better future awaits you. Envision what it is that you desire and strive to be the best that you can be to achieve it. Do something everyday that brings you pleasure . Help others, or simply smile at others. They will smile back. Life is good. Start enjoying it.
  • softly40, Mid North Coast August 15, 2019 | 15:07
    It doesnt take a genius to figure out that Nicotine keeps you a slave r.m.d and yes miracles happen every day although society is not so much interested in wanting to know that. Thankyou for posting, pick up the phone Hi Dad and listen. Keep the love alive.
  • SteveJ September 23, 2019 | 16:24
    It does feel like a miracle, 7 months of the butt and have not felt like this since I was in my thirties. Exercising again, have started to fast intermittently, have lost the post give up weight. Be kind to yourself and your family

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