I had a honeymoon for six weeks. I said to myself "I don't smoke". I found things to do which were not challenging. I coloured in for a couple of weeks. When I thought of a cigarette, I drew on my previous experience from last year and did something else. Then I took on some housework. I found I could only do five minutes of work at a time without getting stressed. So, I did lots of five minute intervals to get it done. Then I tried to cook a special dish. I got angry and did not enjoy my meal. I wanted to smoke. Then later that week I had some other minor problem. I am not used to dealing with my emotions without a smoke. Now I feel as if something terrible is going to happen to me. This is an irrational fear. Nothing has gone wrong today. I have been quit for seven weeks now. I still don't feel up to challenging things like seeing my relatives. I am happy with my Husband and my dog.
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