Well, here i sit ,one month off being 40 feeling like my time is clicking away with each smoke. Ive been smoking since i was 13... ergh! But , im tired of feeling lifeless, out of breath, tired of not being able to do things i love and want to do, like hiking, rock climbing, running with my kids.... im scared i will die young.... i feel i will if i keep going this way. But im scared of quitting.. how silly.. i dont even know why. Im scared i will crave smokes so much, scared i wont fit in,lol. My hubby smokes and wants to quit too, but his reliance is sooo much stronger than mine.... what if i quit and cant kiss him anymore because he stinks.... this scares me too . But, im hoping my quit journey will help him too.... my plan is to cut back slowly and replace my cravings with some excersise... pushups for example. Ive rolled myself 6 smokes for the day and im going to try and stick to it.... im a 20 a day smoker, so lets see.
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