It has been a long day my friends, feeling restless, annoyed and basically like smoking.... am determined not to give in. Day 9 today so I don't want to undo what I have begun. I truly believe it is the best gift you could ever give yourself. Freedom from smoking addiction. I like how I am reminded of my childhood because I can smell again, I like when my four year old says 'you smell beautiful mummy', I like not having to waste money on a pursuit that is effectively killing me slowly. I have also decided to go cold turkey from today which is why I feel more irritable. I have a memory from when I was six years old I am sitting on my mothers lap whilst she is smoking and talking with friends. She is relaxed and happy and I love how she is warm and beautiful. I bend down and reach with my mouth towards her cigarette, she pulls the smoke away and giggles,' no' she says. Her friends laugh as well and I am confused........