Just checking in as I haven't been here for a while. I've managed to make 61 days today! I'm really happy with myself. Most days I feel fantastic & relieved I don't have to smoke anymore, but I do have the odd day where I think about it all day! I haven't had many social occasions to deal with but the couple I have had have been a breeze. However, last night I went out & although I did have a great night I just didn't feel right, I couldn't relax properly as I once did & didn't feel like myself. It was so annoying, I felt like I would have had a better time if I could have just sat back with my drink and my smokes again. I must admit there were quite a few smokers there so that made it hard. The beginning of the night I was sitting alone watching the smokers and thinking how silly it all was & it looked so disgusting but as the night went on my mind was slowly changing. Do I have to avoid these nights for the rest of my life? Will I ever feel at ease and carefree at a social event without the damn things? I want to be my old self but without them. I don't want to feel like there's always something missing. I met a nice guy to chat to but he smokes, do I meet up with him again or avoid him & miss out on the opportunity because he smokes. Since quitting, I've said to myself I will never date another smoker but we got along so well. Very annoyed with it all & it's just making me feel down & frustrated. Will it ever end.