hey there, I am on day 4 being smoke free and am using patches, last night I forgot to take my patch off before bed, man what a trip, I strangled a teenage girl and fought a young man it's a knock out style in my dreams. No mean feat considering I am 5ft nothing. I have also been thinking alot about how my smoking was a form of self harm which is really confronting and scary, I think I have been lonely and I am not sure I have really liked myself. Which is weird because I would not normally have associated those ideas with my self image. My pledge to myself this time is to be kinder to myself and be free. Addiction is awfull- keep going every one, will be praying for you all.