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Treading Water

Posted in Staying quit 08 Apr 2018

Some days I feel as if I am using a lot of energy to stay afloat instead of drowning in my mental illness. I call it treading water. Sometimes I delay buying cigarettes for a day and a half. The last packet I had had twelve left and the quit line encouraged me to destroy them. I am now in day thirteen of quitting. I have been rewarding myself. Each day I have something from the supermarket worth three or four dollars. Once a week I buy myself a pot plant. I am looking forward to two days time. When I get fourteen days smoke-free I am buying myself a bag of potting mix. Go me.

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  • NotThisTime April 08, 2018 | 21:06
    Hi penelopejane

    Rewards helped me tremendously for the first 3-5 weeks I was quit. I rewarded myself by getting massages, buying healthy food, relaxing in the steam room and the one I looked most forward to was an expensive meal at a nice restaurant each weekend. I allowed myself to order whatever I wanted on the menu without taking price into consideration. Initially all these rewards cost me more than smoking, but now, I have saved thousands because I have not smoked for over 15 months. Continue to give yourself rewards and also give yourself a pat on the back. Great job done!
  • hallibean April 09, 2018 | 1:48
    You are doing great! Rewards are a good thing. You deserve the reward. keep going, day by day!
  • Lia April 09, 2018 | 20:50
    Chi Penelopejane. Sorry to her this is a struggle. I must say my greatest reward was seeing how much money was not ending up in the ash tray. Me, 1045 days and over $25000. This amount is in my bank account. Instead of existing pay to pay I am enjoying my "pay rise". Short term rewards don't often make a statement. A serious smoker can burn in excess of $1000 per month. Eventually overseas trips or designer shoes or what ever else takes your fancy. Think about it...
  • Red-67 April 10, 2018 | 3:27
    It appears that you, and your partner, are sharing this. One post says your name is George ? Are you both trying to quit ?
    At any rate, when you get serious, and decide you really don't want to smoke any more, you will quit. You could have been free 4 years ago now. Just think of all the money you could have by now.. If you just take control of your brain, and stop, you will be miserable for just a few weeks, then you will begin to feel free.. Stop thinking like a smoker.. Do you WANT to quit, or not ? You can do it, but only if you get serious..
  • weewillem April 10, 2018 | 21:26
    Great progress Penelope Jane, celebrate every day that you don't smoke. You must be feeling great.
  • NotThisTime April 21, 2018 | 20:01
    Hi PenelopeJane, I am curious how you are making out with quitting. I hope you are doing well and enjoying smoke free days. Remember, there is a whole community here rooting for you and are here if you need feedback or support.

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