Well I guess this is part of the way that i'll de-stress.....why not put it into words instead of it going round in my head.
Had the stress test 3days ago and the results I got yesterday arvo....oh yeah!
Dr. in his charming little calming voice late on friday afternoon says...Trish the test is borderline so we'll need to do some more testing......hmmmmm, so what did I do?
No, I didn't reach for a cigarette or go and buy any, I walked quietly to the fridge and poured a glass of wine, went online and increased my health insurance, sat on the lounge and thought about updating my will......god i'm nuts, after 2 wines I was right.
I am really amazing myself actually, once upon a time that would have been enough reason for me to crumble and grab a cigarette and sit in depths of depression, but for some reason I don't feel like that, I know i'm alittle stressed but I haven't weakened and I'm not going too, I know how hard sometimes the last 50days have been not smoking and I'm not going back there, I'm free of the horrible things and I'll handle this in some other way......so if at times you think it's all too hard don't give in, focus on something else and like me think how b****y unreal it is not to reach for the fags, 'cause they won't help.
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