Stories and experiences by: themrsbeardsley01

The sad thing is I have been quitting smoking & relapsing for a good year & a half. Shame on me! So much wasted time & energy. And I absolutely despise when others waste my time & energy, but me...ehn apparently I let it slide. I have to start holding myself accountable with smoking as I do everything else in my life. I do not yet know where the fear comes from (other than the addiction itsel...

Read the full story about "If I had started a year ago, this wouldn't even be an issue"

While I am a person who strives to understand, I am also an emotional creature by nature. I always let my emotions guide me whenever I am unsure of the best thing to do. When a strong crave hits while I'm angry...BAM ...relapse. Honestly that is the reason I ALWAYS fall off the wagon. I let my emotions rule me. It can be a good thing, but in the case of quitting smoking, it is detrimental to my g...

Read the full story about "Forget what you feel, remember what you deserve"

Read that again I love this one because of the whole internal battle crap. This brings me some perspective & helps calm my frantic mind. "This is only a blip on my timeline & it isn't even close to any of the other battles I have overcome. Keep it moving forward & don't look back, you don't live there anymore." This is one of the things I am trying for self talk. It isn't as late tonight as...

Read the full story about "Life is too short to spend at war with yourself"

Part of my failure to launch stems from my irrational fears surrounding my ridiculous expectations of quitting. So by not taking action, I am actually choosing to stay in this cycle of self imposed torment. What fun! LOL. I am absolutely awful at tearing my self down when I am fighting with myself. And I am a very mean fighter. Thanks to some very kind members on this forum I have not been doing ...

Read the full story about "Whatever you are not changing, you are choosing"

I chose this quote for my first one because it really strikes a cord with me. It is so easy for us to say "I'll do it tomorrow" & I am the QUEEN of procrastination. Part of my fight with myself is the fear of the unknown (How will I ever get through a work day with out smoking? That place makes me crazy!) I am working on this. I have gone a whole work day without taking a break, so I know I can d...

Read the full story about "Today is the tomorrow you talked about yesterday"

Good evening (late afternoon for some) folks. I have spent some tie on the site reading the new stories since my last visit. One story scared me, but most inspired me. I got to thinking about a comment by Happiness when I mentioned my notebook full of motivational quotes. She suggested I post them in a story & I said I would. I haven't gotten to that post yet. I just came up with an idea tonight ...

Read the full story about An idea about sharing my inspirational quotes

I am always "soul searching", looking for answers & understanding. I love to learn & I have been learning a lot with my self inflicted civil war regarding the stupid smokes. One of the things I recently discovered is that my smoking habit gives me an excuse to be lazy. I am a mom, a wife & full time employee. Just like many others, I am super busy & nearly half of my daily cigarettes are (in my m...

Read the full story about Smoking allows me to be lazy

I'm still here, I haven't abandoned ship LOL. Evening folks (it is almost midnight here on Friday) It has been a crazy busy week for me & I apologize that this is the first time I have had a chance to pop in. I see there are lots of new stories & can not wait to read them. An update from me...I am still struggling to fully launch. I have switched to an electronic cigarette with 14 mg of nico...

Read the full story about Quick check in

I recently decided to evaluate the history of my smoking. To break it down & analyze it. Why I started/How I fell into complacency/The reason I continued for so long while adamantly refusing to quit/Realizing my desire to be smoke free. I am hoping this helps break down some of my mental road blocks so here goes… Why I started: It was the stupidest reason. My boyfriend at the time was a smoker...

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I have been going through the stories & came accross a couple of things that I just wanted to let you folks who wrote them know that I found them helpfull.  Sweet Tea mentioned accountability & that is huge to me. It is one of the characteristics I tried very hard to instill in my children. I believe that a person is very much responsible for their decisions ("You can't blame some o...

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