To sleep or not to sleep

It is now 9 days since I chose not to smoke and I am feeling, on the one hand, confident that I will never smoke again and, on the other hand, disbelieving that I won't try again. I have been taking Zyban - something I did not want to take because I had heard all the stories about nightmares and disrupted sleep. I think it is helping my resolve and the side effects, after nearly two weeks, have disappeared. At this stage I am recommending it.

There are a lot of confusing dreams and I seem to sleep a lot more lightly than I used to. It seems as though I am up half of the night but when I get up in the morning I feel fine. Maybe the sleep I am getting is better without those hideous fags. On balance, I feel more rested.

There are still powerful cravings that distract me from what I was speaking of or what someone else is saying. But I am trying to see that as an interesting way to view the universe, rather than a hindrance. All that said, last night I had to breathe deeply about one thousand times as the dreaded craving descended upon me. It helps to read the inspiring stories on this website.