The ups & downs of quitting
On January 17th I committed to a News Years resolution to quit smoking.
I turn 40 this year & didn’t want to be one of those sad old bastards you see standing out on the street smoking. Looking like a scrunched up piece of brown paper before my time. Yeah old smokers you know you look like that!
But I have been up & down like a yo-yo finding my self still sneaking a ciggy here & there. Usually after a meal (what a danger period it is)! Or in the company of mates who still smoke.
However this hasn't stopped my resolve to be a cig-free person!!
I have had lots of congratulations for quitting - so I'd feel too guilty to be 'confirmed smoker' again. I have also had lots of compliments how I have a much better colour to my face - instead of smoker grey/white! Yeah smokers you know you look like an elephants butt!
So I guess what I'm saying is that even though I find myself still bludging the odd cigarette it doesn't mean my journey is over; it doesn't mean I'm a smoker again; it doesn't mean I'M GIVING In to it. It means I'm human, I'm recovering & I'm learning.
Any way - if you read this & it helps terrific. If not then consider the bumper sticker I saw recently - 'When you Cant Breather, Nothing Else Matters'!
If you smoke one a day or one hundred, you are still a smoker. The addiction has you hooked, regardless of quantity. Cutting down makes you feel better, but it is not necessarily better for you. I am sorry to say, but you have not quit. You are still a smoker. You are giving in and we are all human, that is not the point. The point is how well you learn, cope and understand. Yes, when you can't breath, nothing else matters, but do you want that day to come sooner rather than later?
good for you dont take any notice of the knockers try to stay strong when your triggers are happening and good luck