Taking Responsibility

Hi Aussie Dreamer. I am so glad you are back to give it another try. Have you been reading all of our posts and keeping up since your last attempt to quit in April? You are in a bad way my friend, so i will pull no punches. Champix alone will not save you. You have to save yourself, from yourself.

Anyone can quit smoking, even a 70 a day smoker like yourself. In all this time have you changed the way you look at a cigarette? How you look at yourself? Have you changed where, when and how you smoke? Have you determined Why you smoke?

Now i don't imagine it is easy for you, now with feet problems as well, and not being able to hardly breathe due to what smoking has done to you, but only you have the ability to change that. Until you face that, nothing will change...... but someday you will get your dream......

So put aside all the self pity and loathing and put all that feeling into despising the cigarette. Yes, once we were victims... but now we are not. That excuse no longer holds. We do have the power to choose how we want to live. We can change things day by day, step by step to regain control...

I did cold turkey, over in 4 days... but although the nicotine will be gone the psychological cravings would still be here 3 months later and longer if i still WANTED TO SMOKE! I wanted to quit smoking, in my heart and mind. That is the difference in a nutshell. That is how you need to feel and believe. I can't imagine that would be too hard for you to do now, given your health.

I do hope you believe that i am only trying to help here. I am not being cruel, just try to reach through to you, to get you to understand. Last time you were on Champix for 3 weeks, and got down to 12 a day. My understanding is that you start Champix and generally stop smoking in about 10 days. Champix stops our minds from getting the pleasure from smoking by blocking the nicotine sensors. You also have to train your mind and body as not to take any pleasure from smoking. If you had to get out of your chair, and yes it would be painful for you, but if that is what it is worth to have that cigarette, then that is what you do. Once you hold that precious piece of crap, smell it. Light it and swish it around your mouth. Taste the poison... and remember what it has cost you in dollars, health and freedom. Even now, it is costing your freedom as you stand there in pain, sucking on it, while it drains you of energy and breathing rights. EVERY time you relent for a cigarette, you do this.... see how it rules your life. These smoke times are for just you and it, one on one. Love it or hate it. If you want to cozy up to it in your chair again, remember who did the inviting.

It doesn't have to just be a dream Aussie, make it a reality!