Freedom
Day 153.
I was sort of pushed into my quit, having been in the hospital with an infection. So I didn't prepare myself -- or even really want to quit. (Well I guess we all want to...)
Anyway, my kids loved it, and I thought that it is a gift I should take -- just don't smoke anymore.
Ita actually been ok 95% of the time, as far as cravings.
This week I have been in Spain. Lots of people happily smoking (Yes, happily) and it sets off something in me. I read A. Carr's book, so I know about the mind set.
But being here, I really feel I am missing a freedom that I had. Maybe because it was not my real decision or effort to quit. But I feel that I am deprived of something I liked, and that others continue to like.
I know it is not PC to admit that others enjoy smoking, but there it is...
Hi Maestro. Others could only wish to be you. If you hadn't read Allan Carr i could better understand what you are saying. I like you, did not really plan to quit.. it was fate. In my case i did it by choice whereas you had no choice. Still I would think you would be grateful to be a non-smoker with no issues at this time. Maybe you should read some stories here to see how difficult it can be for some. You were truly blessed.
We all thought we were happy smoking...and being younger , smoking being an accepted vice, we probably were. But i am sure that most of us even decades ago, wished we hadn't started. I guess it is equivalent to acceptance of the way things are as being the norm.
Many here acknowledge that they SHOULD quit, can justify it and all, but deep down a part hangs onto the old identity. Even change of routine and other practices cannot change that one thread they cling to. Maybe if they looked forward and envision themselves as happy-non smokers it would help.
That acceptance is the hardest part of this journey. Once you accept you are a non-smoker and wouldn't want it any other way, you will be a happy non-smoker. You will not crave what you do not desire.
Remember that smoking did nothing for you. You will be happier to just accept and be thankful. Best to you.
I understand exactly how you feel. I live in a duplex and sharee the back to area with the neighbors. That's the smoking area. I feel like I am missing out on so much but it's really difficult to be out there.
I also quit because of being in the hospital. My illness was directly related to smoking and required major abdominal surgery, so I may be a little more determined than most not to start again.
Good luck and please, don't start again.
I just wanted to add that I do go out there, and I just remind myself that I have worked too hard to go back.
You really aren't missing out on anything but bad health by quitting.
Thanks, ladies.
I think it is the " you can't fire me -- I quit!!!" Idea.
I was "fired" from smoking. So it is still in my mind something taken away. A freedom...
Guess it's symbolic. (And I liked it...)
Thanks, ladies.
I think it is the " you can't fire me -- I quit!!!" Idea.
I was "fired" from smoking. So it is still in my mind something taken away. A freedom...
Guess it's symbolic. (And I liked it...)
Thanks, ladies.
I think it is the " you can't fire me -- I quit!!!" Idea.
I was "fired" from smoking. So it is still in my mind something taken away. A freedom...
Guess it's symbolic. (And I liked it...)
Thanks, ladies.
I think it is the " you can't fire me -- I quit!!!" Idea.
I was "fired" from smoking. So it is still in my mind something taken away. A freedom...
Guess it's symbolic. (And I liked it...)