Searching for peace of mind
I'm not here to help anyone because I lost my mind. As a result I'm quitting smoking experience multiple symptoms including very severe depression and panic attacks accompanied by frequent trips to the ER thinking was terminally ill or or sick. I feel like I have been separated from my body and no longer reason the person that I was before. I cannot coexist comfortably with my family and my friends. My last trip to the emergency room one of my fingers completely numb and turned blue and this lasted for two days. I am extremely haunted by antismoking commercials on TV. My behavior is interfering with my job and I also had a minor car accident. Before I decided to quit I maintained an extraordinary healthy diet and have been doing it for many years. I love to exercise run and walk. I feel like my body hurts too much to do these things now no longer smoke. At this point I feel like I would be better off to just resume smoking cigarettes before I lose my job and ruin my relationships with my family and friends.
Hey Jess,
Wow you having a tough time, Hang in there bud. It does affect each of us differently. I had the same problem with my hands and fingers going numb too. Have you tried any NRT to ween yourself off the nicotine? You may need help from a doctor, I talked to my doctor about it and he prescribed me Wellbutrin. It seemed to help me with the withdrawals. I also used the patch. The patch and meds helped me get off smoking. Then the meds helped me get off the patch, and now I've got to get off the meds possibly June, July time frame during my next Dr visit. Oh and I told my boss at work that I was quitting smoking and let him know the symptoms of withdrawal in case I accidentally went for his throat. Yeah, don't say that. I'm just kidding. I also told my family, they should be supportive, if not get right back on this side. We're on your side here, if things get tough jump on here and tell us. Were all in the same boat. OK.
Hi Jessie, you and only you is your ship's captain......Ask yourself why you decided to quit. You ,only can answer that question in order to continue on your journey. Everyone on this site will offer assistance and guidance from each person's experiences however it is you that needs to be totally committed. Cheers.
Oh gosh, I'm so sorry you're having these experiences. Don't beat yourself up over it. It might take a few attempts before you feel really ready. I don't know if you had a plan in place before the day you quit. If you didn't, and it's all becoming too hard, then if I were you I think I'd start over, and be better prepared. Firstly with a visit to the doctor to discuss options. There's a lot to choose from once we decide to do it. When you have the help you need it might not be quite so extreme. As for the commercials, I used to quickly switch channels every time they came on. Now I find they're actually a help. Hang in there, be kind to yourself.
Wow doesn't sound like you're in a good
place right now. Can you phone like a
quit smoking support line or see your
doctor?
Those adds are really a wake up call
because they can happen if we continue
to take that risk. I hated watching them
also but it's weird how anxiety can
get hold of a person and so we used to
smoke thinking that eases the anxiety but
it really doesn't at all.
3 months smoke free.
I stopped taking Champix at the end of 1st packet. I to feel like I'm at a cross road with this. I enjoy not smoking and how I feel, being able to run and breath in the fresh air - I love it.
the down fall I'm feeling for the past 2 weeks is what I think is sudden depression. I feel I was a much better person as a smoker and miss morning coffee's with my husband. my husband is 100% supportive on this... will the sudden outburst of tears stop? will the yelling at my family stop? at times I actually hate the person I have become.
heres the real kicker.... I enjoy not smoking, I don't miss running and dying on the side of the road. I no longer smell like smoke. I no longer get stared at whilst smoking. I can suddenly smell everything again... funny enough I hate the fact I'm 7kg heavier but love running my butt off and eating healthy to fight the weight gain.
so will this pass or am I suffering depression? I'm sick of crying for no reason, I'm sick of feeling flat and I'm sick of attacking my family.. I'm sick of missing my smoking life.