Day 5
Hi. There I'm a 31 stay home mother who has not smoked for 5 days. I use the lozenges 2 mg they help only use when really needed. The hardest part for me is thinking I deserve to smoke that it is a reward for all the other sacrifices I make. My husband works night shift 6 nights a week 12 hrs. I am alone alot when the kids go to bed I enjoyed taking my tablet outside to watch A show and smoke. I thought it was a gift for myself. These past few nights I have been grieving a loss. I had to make the decision that I wanted to be better. I want to exercise and ride my bike for an hour a day and eat healthy. I'll admit I just want to feel sexy again. It's been tough but I'm determined and a sore loser this site has helped so much when I feel my mi d wandering to a dark place thank you for everyone that shares there journey
Hello Ashhend. You are doing great on your journey to quit smoking, yes it does feel like you are grieving and this feeling will stay with you for a little while then it will pass.
But you say you are determined,, well good for you, be determined, pigheaded, stubborn, be anything to beat the Nicotine Demon.
Looking forward to more messages from you on your journey.
Just don't be hard on yourself, every journey in life starts with a step, and just keep telling yourself that you are doing great.
Just keep it in the day, there a saying just for today, I live with this for my quit, hoping in the future I can sometime know that no is enough. I too struggle like you to find replacement for the tie I spent smoking. So just for today I did not smoke.
I understand everything that you've said there Ashhend. I'ma 35yo single mum and used to think that i deserved to smoke as a reward too.I really honestly thought that my only pleasure in life was smoking. I'm onto day 31 today and i can tell you that the grief/loss feeling does ease, so do your best not to give in to these hard times. You're doing great so far! I used to ask myself why can't i get addicted to exercise like i could with cigarettes?? In the time that I've quit I've started walking 3 or 4 times a week now. I'm starting to feel good about myself again. Fight the urge to smoke as much as you can because it's definitely worth it!!! Good luck!
Thank you so much reading this forum has been a blessing. Tomorrow will be a week smoke free and today I had a few cravings. Family came over to visit and this has been the first time being social since my last puff. I got through it thank you for your kind words
Ashend, you are doing great,
tomorrow is week 1, next Sunday is going to be week 2 of no smoking, etc.
Cravings will always be apart of your everyday life, but thats when your willpower, determination, stubborness will over ride those thoughts.
I am now 5 months without a smoke and yes I still have strong cravings but I am sooooo bloody determined that the Nicotine Demon is not going to win, cause I am the winner here.
But you can do it Ashend, hi 5s